The Art of Oneness

The Grand Illusion

2011-03-16T19:59:00.000-07:00

It turns out a few of my very old videos that I made are still online. For those of you who dont know I used to have a rather significant youtube channel and produced a few of my own videos with found materials. Heres one I recently found :D

Disclose.tv - The Grand Illusion... Video

I'm Addicted to Addiction, But I can quit when I want to...

2011-03-15T05:04:00.000-07:00

Wait.. Werent we taught about addiction in school? The police officer came to my third grade class and showed us a bunch of drugs and we were told how bad they were. We were shown videos of signs of violent drug users. Told to keep an eye out for people who have fists while they walk. So we can glimpse a little at the addictive qualities certain chemicals have but we were never told why a person chooses this. Why is the truth so alluding?

An intriguing place to start is with the notion that people can become addicted to emotions. We sometimes forget we are made up of trillions of cells and view the world through chemicals.

Emotions can be viewed psychologically, spiritually, and an infinite array of perceptions. To view them as their chemical states seems to be a key to understanding our addiction to them. It seems true that a person may persist in one state of perception, causing particular emotions to exist, and thus a particular chemical to be produced. Over time a state of normality develops and we become more comfortable hanging around one set of chemicals than another. We develop a dependency on them.

With this in mind it starts to be quite easy to see why people become addicted to, well, anything. Someone may have an unending urge to play video games, read books, or talk. They all get a certain sense of themselves from doing so and chemicals are released and comfort develops. I personally dont think we are meant to live in one state for a long period of time. It seems to be quite damaging. "Everything in moderation" seems to apply even to something as immaterial as emotions even though we tend not to think of thoughts and emotions as things, but rather we see them as "I", when this is really not the case.

When people go through withdraw of a hard drug it can sometimes take weeks to overcome; a lot of time that is full of sweating and fighting an internal struggle of letting go. They used to use LSD to release people of such afflictions and the simple - heavy sessions therein would cure people of their addiction all together. High doses of LSD were given, the patient would then lay on the couch and would face the inner spaces of who they were and their relationship with reality. Supposedly they wouldn't need to go through the lengthy withdraw phase. This is because the user would have to face the aspects of themselves during their session; which were the root causes for their addiction.

After many years of study I still find it quite fascinating that all drugs mimic what is already in the human body. The drug could not work if the body did not already have the ability to use it. For instance THC from Marijuana forces the brain to produce an excess of normal happy chemicals thus making you "high". If you became very very happy without the drug you would feel the same way. I myself have been this happy and I did feel high and others asked me if I was. I was high on life.

I think if a balance in ones life is not attained, then, obviously, ones will naturally seeks ways to balance. In modern society it seems as if we do not know how to do that very well so we turn to sensations as a means to deliver us from what ails us. We in fact, more times than not, choose new ways to comfort ourselves. We cannot seem to put our finger on what ails us beyond comforts. I think ignorance is the culprit to this undeveloped mindset. We persistently deny the truth every time we choose comfort over the truth. "The truth hurts" is quite a famous and even cliche saying but if honestly considered, its undeniably true.

Buddha struggled with the notion of human suffering. It was in fact his life's work to find a solution to it. In the end enlightenment was the answer. This moment contains it all. If you learn to see suffering for what it is, and let it be as it must, then you have an opportunity to use it for what its meant for rather than let it use you until you become sick from trying to look away. We are far more responsible for our addictions than we like to think and until we learn to mature properly we will always live in immature attachment.

Healing the Preemptive Strike

2011-01-13T03:31:00.000-08:00

A few years ago there was a lot of talk on the news about "preemptive strikes". These referred to war, and more specifically, striking the enemy before they strike you. I used to get sick a lot more than I do these days. From the food I eat, to the exercise I get, to the healthy mentality I cultivate, my health requires my undying attention and intrigue.

I remember, a few years ago now, getting the flu right around Christmas. I remember eating soup for weeks and weeks but I was still sick. A lot later I realized that I had not been feeding my body anything good to help heal itself. The soup I had been eating had a few good veggies in it and even meat but it was mostly broth, otherwise I wasn't really giving my body much to work with. At the same time my mental state was one of self-conscious depression. Not only for having to be sick, but also for having been layed off recently and attempting to start my freelance career. Its times like these that ignorance becomes clear. My limitations at that point made me ill and I did not have the wisdom to heal myself well, nor prevent the illness from taking over my body completely.

This can be a touchy subject because I find most people don't feel responsible for their sickness. They blame the flu or whatever is ailing them as the culprit. As if the virus itself is going around making people sick without their having anything to do with it. If this were the case then everyone would be sick and the human race would most likely have died off a very long time ago. Our bodies always contain virus's but they must wait until the immune system lets them in. I think this is a system we don't fully understand. Doctors have a great understanding of it but even some of them suffer the same delusions of responsibility as everyone else. The energy we put in our body (food), the energy our body participates in (internal and external environment, thoughts and relationships), and the energy we express (exercise, creativity, love), all help to serve our balance and well being as bodies of energy. This is not a spiritual thought mind you, though it does serve that also, I mean this all quite literally and scientifically. We are intimately responsible for our bodies but its something we need to learn about. Going to the doctor can be helpful but people don't typically attempt to understand it themselves. They would rather "leave it to the professionals". Which is like saying “I don't want to deal with what I do with my money, Ill go to a banker to tell me what I do with it”. Its a broken way of living.

A year later the onset of sickness was here again. I remember the stress of the time and yet I did not stop to rest. I kept pushing myself until I became sick. I realized I had done this so I switched my mentality from one of ambition to one of nurturing. I decided to nurture my body because I love my body. This switch in mentality vastly improved my situation. I did not look at the sickness as something to loath or hate, but as a sign of being out of balance. Its a very clear signal that people tend to treat like a neuscense. You can look at the stop light as if it is telling you that you need to slow down and come to a stop because you are in danger, or you can look at it as if its slowing you down and getting in your way. I fed my body great food; fruit, veggies, water, garlic, onions, etc. All sorts of good healing foods so my body had a healthy supply of nutrients and water to move them around with. My mentality was nurturing which felt like I was mothering myself. It felt like love and it felt right. I was happy and I rested. I slept, and made peace. And I was over my sickness before it really started.

It is true that doctors call cancer the "martyrs disease". A martyr, by definition, is someone who suffers. They take in the pain and they hold it which causes internal suffering. This is the first clear sign of a dis-ease. Having had a step father who past away when I was 12 from cancer, I had many years to ponder the truth of this idea. And true it is. Roy was a great man but he lived with much internal stress and pain. He slaved away for a boss who always paid him late, he made due with what little we had, he had a divorced wife and a daughter he could only see on rare occasions, a father he never really got to know, and friends who's lives were full of negativity, struggle and sickness. Roy had leukemia for 3 or 4 years but, in the end, died of a heart attack. He simply could not keep up the fight with his own dis-ease, no matter how large a heart he had. Like an mental pain, dis-ease starts as a seed and takes over the whole system. In the end the host believes without a shadow of doubt that they are the dis-ease, and there is no way to beat it. They believe this so much in fact that they believe the only way to overcome this painful position is to fight.

This is like fighting fire with fire. Its like fear handing you a sword to fight with, and you fight, never realizing you fight because you are afraid. Fear completely tricked you because you had no idea who YOU really were.

We live in a society that is disconnected. Our spirit does not feel connected to reality. I would blame scientific thinking for this completely but I think its too simple to do that, however true it may be, there are far too many other things to help this also. I think we live in a society that caters to distracting ones self from their connection to reality. We are raised ignorantly and continue to nurture our own ignorance of who and what we are. We let others convince us of false ideas and migrate to unhealthy ways of thinking of ourselves and the world. Instead of seeing ourselves as reality, connected completely as energy to all energy we relate with and trying to see that we in fact are not bound to skin and bone but are in fact infinite. Instead we reinforce the idea that we are separate, that we do not believe in "god", that we are machine like. We forget truths that were discovered by our ancestors and passed down through the generations simply because we feel we are smarter than them. We discount their ideas because we are told they are simpletons who believe in mythology and magic.

I read recently that multitasking makes people stupider. They cannot focus on one thing at a time anymore yet somehow we convince ourselves that we are very good at doing more than one thing at a time. When in fact we cannot do either thing particularly well. So maybe this is the challenge of the future. We are destined to face sickness, death, pain, suffering, and all the other negative aspects of a detached self until we learn our lesson. This does not just apply to us as a whole, but individually as well. Though this is true it does not have to be true in a larger sense. If we begin to learn from the small pains, and sickness's, and suffering, then they do not need to grow into a full blow organism. If we do not do the work however, then we will, through ignorance, end up nurturing one dis-ease or another, until it grows big and strong.

Nowadays I practice preemptive strikes however I don't fight the pain. I accept it as my own. I realize "yes, i feel stress in my chest and I can see that i feel it when I think about money that I owe, or the person who bothers me, or the thing I need to do next week. I can see now that I am out of balance and I remember that I am one with god, right now, in this moment. Although money, people, and possibilities exist, are real, and are in my life, they does not govern my well being if I don't let them. Debt is temporary, money is temporary, people and life are temporary, I will die, so fearing any of it is silly and only serves to hurt my body and life. I am safe and free." These are the types of revelations I attempt to make. When I feel pain, sickness, and depression, I try to wake up to the truth and let go, rather than hold on. I don't throw on the TV and go to sleep more. I accept these conditions as signs. Remember who I really am, and move through the suffering.

Balance is key to a healthy life. Its an eastern idea that seems to be penetrating the western mindset slowly. I like to remember a simple easter pearl of wisdom: "When I am hungry, I eat. When I am thirsty, I drink. When I am tired, I sleep. When I feel like dancing, I dance."

As far as I know, all of our bodies die of something or another. A long life has much to give and teach, I hope all the best to you and yours.

Too blind to see God

2011-01-05T18:45:00.000-08:00

After watching a short interview with Richard Dawkins and Ben Stein talk about God I began to think on this subject again. How can a scientist, someone who is identified with the rigger and mechanical thinking of science, ever truly see God? There are ways that could make it possible but this is not an intellectual exercise. In fact it has nothing to do with the intellect. It seems that, as is anyone trying to understand something they are closed minded to, they are identified with a certain way of thinking and anything beyond this thinking is literally beyond them. Richard Dawkins is well known for trying to put down ideas of God and I find it amazing because he makes no effort to really relate to ideas presented. He resists this thinking the whole time. So instead of letting bygons be bygons he is actually uncomfortable with his lack of knowledge within himself and attempts to reinforce his own way of thinking.

So how does a Scientist begin to see God? I think its like seeing the forest for the trees. The truth is that there are many scientists that believe in God. And not a god that is some white dude in the sky that created us and filters his prayer emails. God as reality, existence.

You are introduced to new parts of yourself through your life and thus the relationship between you and yourself develops. This is also quite psychological. When you are faced, internally or externally, with that new part of yourself you either resist it or you have a relationship with it and it within yourself. I think this is hard to grasp because we lack confidence in being open to all ideas and truths, we tend to gravitate to one identification of self or another, making any openness foggy if not completely closed. This happens because we are fearful, because we feel separate from reality, as if we are on the outside looking in. And in that case you would be. When you have experienced that relationship, you may look inward. Then all outward experiences are also internal ones.

It seems to be that people just have problems with ideas. Even now as I write this, it is my way of working out my issues with ideas. I see god in a way that I see God. Its infinite, expansive, omnipotent, conscious, and loving. Someone else will see God as a being to worship and to fear, and others will imagine many other forms. This does not make any of them false. Scientists like to believe they have the truth. But truth is relative. Facts are not. The fact is you cannot discount one mans internal truth over another without limiting your own potential to discover something new within your internal experience of reality. I think scientists like Dawkins are actually evangelical scientists. They believe there is no other truth but science truth. That there is no better way to exist in society than as a scientifically minded person. Personally I think its extremely important and normal to live spiritually. Its the way its been done since humans could think. Spirituality to me means we cultivate the ability to relate to reality as life, which it is. As we move into the future in this scientific society/environment our minds are changing. Science is helping people to disconnect from life and thus everyone is beginning to feel broken and lost. Depression is at an all time high. Take back what was already yours.

I feel that if the only reality you are willing to accept is one that you can repeat in a lab then Im afraid you are too uptight about life. I met a woman the other day who insisted imagined thoughts were not real. This is the same line of ignorant thinking. She needs to limit what she can accept as real and true in order to feel secure and comfortable in reality. If those thoughts werent real, then how can they exist?

What Salvia Has Taught Me

2011-01-03T00:51:00.000-08:00

It was brought to my attention that it would be in mine and others good fortune for me to speak about my experiences with the legal sage plant called Salvia Divinorum. After having many experiences with the plant and then subsequently giving the experience to others and hearing their findings from their "trips" I have come to the conclusion that most other people dont seem to have the means to convey what they experience, or, they simply dont have any context to put anything into words. So they simply cant talk about it because they dont even know what happened. To them it seems to be like a wild blur.

I dont think that I am special and that others are broken but rather I do think I may be sensitive in ways the regular non psychedelic user would be. I had a heavy, and I mean heavy, experience on LSD which seems to have enhanced my experiences by many times thus making me more sensitive to altered states of consciousness. I dont do much when it comes to drinking or drugs, and never really have, because the chemicals naturally running through my body have become quite intense. Again I think simply the act of taking LSD did not make me "special" but rather it altered my perception making my awareness of my internal workings much more clear.

I first came to know of Salvia after hearing Terence Mckenna speak about it. He said "it takes you far beyond what DMT and LSD can do". And in a way he is right. "Its cheap, its legal, its completely natural, and it is the only psychedelic that works the way it does on the brain". Most involve altering serotonin levels but this one does not. I researched it after hearing about Mckennas admiration of the sage. I read that Mazatec Indians would use this plant to speak to spirits. It is also considered an anti depressant, which I have a theory of why that I will go in to later. I really liked the idea of speaking to spirits. This was all in the middle of my big awakening in life. So I tried it initially with the intention of speaking to spirits directly, not just to trip out and have fun, though that is a part of the experience.

Each experience was new and different and to this day each one is unfamiliar and new. Its like entering a whole new dream each time. During one of my first experiences I got my wish and spoke to spirits. I had turned off the lights in my room, turned on my black light, and all that was lit up were the white objects in the room and the rest were just shadows. As I smoked the leaves and exhaled the smoke into the warm purple glow of what light there was, I began to feel as if the shadows in the room were changing. They soon began to take on a presence of beings. They knew I was there and I knew they were there. Then in my minds eye I met more beings, more spirits. They began to tell me that I had opened a window into their world and they could communicate with me now. They told me that I needed to know I am always surrounded by them and that they love me. To put it more simply, I was reminded that I am always surrounded by love but normally I am blind to this fact. I accepted this and was very happy for them telling me. Then they began to put on a show for me. They laughed at me, not in a demeaning way, but in a loving way. It was happiness itself. Then I laughed at them, with them, simply because I was happy. Love gave birth to joy. This, amongst other more random and fun experiences, was one of the gifts given to me from the use of Salvia. It helped me to see life in a whole new way.

Some people think that these "hallucinations" are false because they are in the mind. So they should be discounted. I think thats a very sick way to experience life. All of life is important and it is all a part of something bigger than you. When you experience the world around you while you are sober, you are experiencing it through chemicals inside your body. Because you, in the end, are not just a single person. You are trillions of cells experiencing life at the same time. When the chemicals in your body change, lets say you become happier, your experience of life changes in that moment, but it does not make it less true. it may be only your truth because it is your experience, but none the less it is real and true and a gift. So throwing another chemical into the mix does not make it false. They say that all the chemicals you can consume only work (make you trip out or feel different) because they mimic what is already inside of you. This means that you already have the capacity to experience life in an infinite number of ways. All meant to give you more depth and wisdom about who you are and what your here to do and be.

The second experience I would like to mention happened only a few months ago. I felt a tremendous pressure on my body and in simple terms, we would call it stress. I did not understand where my stress was coming from but the fact is that it was there and it did not feel good. I decided to smoke some Salvia and give myself an altered state which is a break from the norm that develops. When the experience came on I began to see all the objects around me extend and multiply into oblivion. I soon began to realize that I was being shown the life of each object in the room. Each one came from some where, will go some where, is claimed by someone, was made from something, so on and so on. At this realization I knew that each object was causing me this pressure in my life. I felt a responsibility for it all and that this feeling was only brought to the surface after smoking salvia. Normally, it is a subconscious understanding and something we do not see easily. My house is full of these objects and calling any of them mine is a pressure that is damaging. Yet here we are all doing this.. We get a sense of self from the things in our lives because it seems to give our lives purpose. Without it people tend to feel lost. I think this happens because people are normally quite detached from who they truly are. They are not taught when they are young to cultivate spiritual ideas. Its something I was taught a little but ended up needing to give it to myself, which is all of our responsibility.

I let go of the objects and my stress went away, even if it was for just a few days. I realized they can live with me during their lives but that doesnt mean I need them. A part of me likes the feeling of this attachment that it doesnt want the feeling to end. But if I am willing to see the truth then I will see that this type of thinking is causing me, as a whole, more harm than good.

A similar experience happened during my next session but the concept I received was executed quite differently. This time I was laying on my bed and I could feel some stress. It had been a few months since my last Salvia experience. When the experience came on and I was right in the thick of it I realized I felt no stress. I could see the walls were constructed by infinite beings. Not that they were built by them, but built of them. This time taking on the appearance of a small anime character, not any particular one. But I could tell thats what it was. It repeated infinitely. The movement in the room felt like a roadway. Like a busy street. I was in the middle of a crowded area. My whole room was alive and had turned into an English countryside, at least it felt this way. There was intention moving all about the room. I felt the presence of beings claiming ownership of other things, themselves constructed of other beings, and I noticed that I was doing nothing while all this was going on. None of these beings even cared I was here. Though I did get the distinct feeling that they all knew it too. I was now a fly on the wall and nothing in the room, or world for that matter, was my responsibility anymore. All of the responsibility was taken away from me and my job was simple; watch, observe and be free.

The concepts are similar. I am being shown that I develop attachments to things in my world and daily life. The inevitable effect of these attachments, I like to call "normalizing". We become normalized in our daily lives and we need to break the chains that come with them from time to time otherwise we forget that we are free. Some would even say that our trouble is we become attached in the first place. If I have learned anything it is that we as a society teach it to ourselves. We have been grown and developed to be attached and only those who really wish to be free from these feelings that pin us down will seek and find the truth.

Antidepressants and other pharmaceutical drugs are, believe it or not, derived from psychedelic plants and chemicals. All of them effect each patient differently. The problem with these drugs is that they are not used to heal. They are used to cope. So the effect is not noticed. It only dulls the senses enough that a person can live in the same pain without truly going beyond it by becoming more aware of it. As cliche as it may be, companies prey on the ignorance of the masses. Our whole society has moved away from looking at life as life and now looks at it as a machine. If the machine is broken, the parts must be broken, denoting some sort of permanent unfix-able problem. Why there is so much trust put into a system like this baffles me. As far as I can tell its 100% ignorance. People dont want to learn through these types of experiences because they are scared. They were not raised to do so. While thousands of years ago, and even currently in some areas of the world, learning through shamanism and spiritual experiences by controlled drug induced altered states, awakenings and healing go hand in hand.

Salvia should not be taken lightly but then again I am not sure many people experience what I do on it. I dont smoke extract. Some people smoke 5x, 10x, 100x, etc. I only smoke the leaves. I have chewed it before but its the most god awful taste in the world and you cant swallow it for 20 minutes. You must chew it and mush up the leaves and grind them with your teeth for 20 minutes without swallowing. The chemical Salvinorum A is secreted through your saliva glands in your mouth. This is the way it was originally consumed. If you wish to smoke it tho, make sure you have dry leaves, pack a bowl in a water-bong tightly, inhale a good amount then hold it as long as you can. Do not cough. If you know your going to cough then slowly breath out. Take another and repeat if you can. Then when your vision blurs, set down the bong and relax. Let the experience take hold. Please share your experiences with me if you remember them!

My last thought I want to talk about in regards to salvia is its properties as an anti depressant. Depression, to me, is a disconnection from "God". We lose ourselves in normality and no longer feel we have a place in reality. We feel lost and without purpose. When you smoke salvia, and you experience spirits and beings as I have described, you cannot help but reconnect with your true self and with life itself. If your experience is anything like mine, then you meet beings in undescribable amounts. So many in fact that it is more so a feeling of uncalcuable numbers than anything. And they all love you. This alone brings anyone out of depression. You can tell a depressed person you love them and that they are not alone but they do not "know" it. When you experience the same thing in an altered state you know it because you become it. Love touches you deeply and the connection is made.

I believe we, as humans, are meant to live life as we will while periodically consuming compounds that produce positive spiritual experiences, breaking out of any norms we fall in to.

Change Your Relationship With the Word

2010-10-07T04:25:00.000-07:00

In the beginning there was the word, and it was good. Then over time, it went bad, and nobody seems to want to say it anymore because it is now a dirty word. The word is God.

It was a revelation (another tainted word) to me when I finally realized the only thing sour about the word God and what it meant was my relationship with it. As a child in the 80's and 90's God already was tainted. And maybe it has been for a few hundred years if not more. As I grew up it seemed to be a word that everyone wanted to tiptoe around. Afraid to hurt someones feelings or beliefs, the word took on new meaning and became a dirty word. Now no one knows what God you are talking about. So more specific words are used.

In my youth God meant, some guy in heaven, which is a place i had no conception of where it was located, who could watch you all the time and after you died would read your life's sins to you as he slowly shut the gate to you. It seemed rather bleak from the onset and thus I became an atheist. I turned my back on that no good God in search for something that felt better.

Doesn't that seem crazy though? Why would you need to leave God to find something better? This is how you can tell its been bastardized. As a child i went to churches. All kinds of different ones. And maybe, just maybe, the ancient way of delivering the truth of God had begun to fail.

Through the years I moved on into other realms of study, science, philosophy, oneness, conspiracy theory. None of which were truly fulfilling. Then one day it dawned on me. I had a bad relationship with the word God. I hated when people said it and used it. But why should I? Its just a word. I realized that I had a specific identification of myself that I had developed with it. Which is just a relationship. So i started over, gave God another chance. No longer was some strange unknown figure lurking in the shadows of my mind but now it was literally everything, everyone, no one, and nothing. It was me, and you, and everyone. It began to take form as conscious existence itself. But it only took this form when I decided I wanted a real relationship with life. And in the end, its called God.

Now I can revisit the stories in the bible and see the truth in them. God loves us, heaven is right now, hell is right now, if I SIN, right now. Its like I was lost in some ancient translation and the only way out was to abandon the handed down ways of understanding divinity. Which is very akin to what Jesus experienced himself. A man born into a word feeling separate from an established way of doing things. Lost in his own sea of translation and watching as those who preached their words were just as lost, if not more. Lost in a swamp of identification of self through a sense of authority.

If you want to know God more, let go of everything you know about it, and learn from direct experience with it.

Wrong Side of the Bed

2010-10-07T03:58:00.000-07:00

Today I finally realized the real reason for depression and praying before bed. They dont really sound like two things that belong in the same sentence. One is a mental issue and another is about religion. Or at least those have been the associations of the terms for the past few decades. The truth is that they are both intimately linked to the same delusion. That we are separate from god.

This post come from my perspective, a spiritual student. Scientists will suggest that there is a problem with the brian and that you need medication for depression. Although, obviously, the brain chemistry is different, it is not the actual problem. For some strange reason scientists think its best to dope people up rather than help them change their perspective, which is the real issue for the problem in the first place. The truth is that depression is natural, just as being spiritual is natural. Its simply a matter of a perception. And this may be the problem with healing depression. Scientists dont understand the missing element. Carl Young was a spiritual scientists and understood the need for this knowledge. Not believe, but knowledge. Meaning that he understood you needed to have a relationship with divinity.

Drugs alter the perception of the brain and making the problem seem to "go away". But this does not actually fix the problem. The problem is that as we remain immature when a truly maturing human grows spiritually and develops a relationship with god. Depression is a misguided perception on life.

I woke up this morning really out of sorts. I woke up fine, at 11am, sun bright and warm in my room, queen size bed and me spread out on it, my guinea pig squeaking for food and attention. But for some reason I felt grumpy. I could tell I was a bit depressed and had no idea why. I ended up on a call with a client of mine, logo designs werent right, he needed more. I wasnt sounding happy, felt like I could'nt deliver. I realized my energy was very low.

After some time feeling this way I realized I needed to raise my energy. I ate some oatmeal for fibre, which will burn the “engines” hot and give me steady energy. I had some green tea and even a banana. All great things for high energy. But even after all that I still didnt feel well. I went and sat down and picked up the first book that was lying around and it was a book on chakras that I had looked through here and there. I flipped it open and the exact section I flipped to spoke about the 6^th chakra being low in energy, and that this was the problem with feeling depressed. What it said next was a reminder to me, for this was something I had already known, but had recently forgotten. I was a part of God. It said that this is the simple key to depression. Wanting to know my divine connection and asking to remember that, then letting the answers (revelations) come.

The depression is alleviated instantly. The purpose for spirituality is not to feel special, but to remember the fact that you are a part of something bigger than yourself. We need food or we starve, we also need spiritual food, or else our spirit starves and we become depressed, aggressive, uneasy, agitated, and generally unaccepting of any other way but our own.

As I lay in bed it dawned on me that what had happened that day was that I had woken up godless. I forgot who I was, where I was, and temporarily forgot my relationship with my divine roots. This is the real reason for prayer. Not to pray for the things we want but simply to remember the relationship with god that we have naturally. Not in a religious sense, but as reality. So when you go to bed, pray. Remember oneness, remember love, remember compassion and remember kindness, remember a reality that loves you and only wants the best for you, remember gratitude and remember your timeless self. Then sleep. I think then, the morning will feel quite different.

Welcome to the afterlife

2010-09-06T06:54:00.000-07:00

If you have spent some time trying to get a grasp on the idea of infinity, then you probably have realized that reality itself is infinite. Understanding reincarnation is not far off then. If I have lived infinite times then that means I have been every animal, every person, in all of the vastness of reality. Then it also means I am those beings right now and will be them in the future. So if that is the case then the reality is that you have died before and will do so again, as I am sure you already know.

The conclusion I find most fascinating is that all of this means that the life we experience now is the afterlife. There are a lot of religions in the world who imagine the afterlife to be some glorified palace in the clouds. Could this simply be perpetual wishful thinking of some better time to come that humans consistently suffer from? It reminds me of retirement. People , who slave away their whole lives, imagine they will be happy after they are done their years of servitude, only to question, in the end, what it was all for.

I think this is a natural way of thinking for us. We spend our time and energy hoping for some happy time to come instead of learning to enjoy the journey.

If this indeed the afterlife, I am in either heaven or hell? Well, doesn't it feel sometimes like the pain of a dark moment will never end? Then, through revelation (a revealing) we discover more about ourselves and are released from under the thumb of some dark thought. We are enlightened. From there we enter into the gates of heaven in this very moment. Not in some time to come. This is the very basis for "My father has many mansions", a famous quote by Jesus Christ.

If you have come to terms with your mortality then the reality of these ideas are not so scary. It seems like the more someone runs from the idea of their mortality, the farther from they find themselves from God, and the more they find themselves in hell and darkness. Because, at least in my view, most people don't seem to "go there", it may be that only a rare few do so willingly and the rest will go through some trama that forces them to see this. This is one way that God works.

It doesnt feel so bad being dead does it? We are duality and all things at once. We are dead and alive, we are happy and sad, loving and fearful. We are living potential. We seem to move in waves through hell then back into heaven.

From time to time we wish we could purely live in those heavenly moments and forget about darkness altogether. This is why we find ourselves in hell so much of the time. If you realized you were in both then you wouldnt need one or the other. Both exist together as one. This, I think, is the balanced type of thinking we are meant to discover as we mature. We are meant to live in harmony with reality but we cannot do that if we do not see reality, indeed ourselves, in its true nature.

I think any type of polarized thinking is hindering of potential because it takes away from the other side. How could you surf if you had no waves? How could you live if you did not have death. How could you love if there was not fear. How could you see you are given everything you need in life if you only choose to see that what you get is never enough. The fact is that both are true. But the limited mind will only choose one option. This behavior limits true potential of the self and in my mind breaks the bond between balance. This is where disease comes in.

When we are lost to a world of polarized identification then we lose the self that is limitless potential. Sickness and disease are signals to us, they are clear messages, typically fallen on deaf ears.

The goal is clear. To find balance in life. To live as intended by divinity itself. Not to argue and distract, but to find clarity and become free. We must learn to see where we are agreeing with being polarized. The only power we have to truly change is through the gift of awareness.

"The secret inlet into the realm of what is timeless and eternally true is our awareness of the present moment; for our awareness of now is not an awareness of a given time, but is vested in that higher consciousness through which the things of time move in and
out of creation."

-- Guy Finley

Ignorance is only bliss to a part of you that wishes to stay divided from knowing your true limitless self.

Finding lost keys to the mansions

2010-06-11T04:51:00.000-07:00

I used to study the Mayan year of 2012 but lost interest. I had all about given up on this date and the non stop stories of predictions that people have to go with it. Recently I came across a new 2012 video that explained what the Mayan perspective on the date and their cultures ultimate downfall because of their sheer ignorance of the truth. Through countless lifetimes of history keeping they knew that cycles of time and energy repeated themselves. They saw the universe of pattern and waves and saw that it has predictability. They knew a great change was coming. What they didnt know was that it would be the conquering spaniards and priests that came with them. The mayan leaders allowed themselves to be captured by the spaniards and were subsequently murdered. Then the Spaniards proceeded to murder millions of people, wiping out an entire continent. The Mayans were so mezmerized by their imagination of what change was coming that they didnt realize the truth of possibilities. If everything is a wave then the mayans were a culture at the top. But a wave doesnt fall instantly, it takes time to descend. I think the Mayan civilization may have been coming down from its high point and sinking to such a low point they would practically disappear.

If this is true, that a universal law is that everything acts as waves but in different scales then we should be able to see it in our lives. The fact is that we already know waves are everywhere and everything. Particles dont act like particles unless being observed, they act like waves. When they are observed waves of observation cancel out the natural flow of those waves. So it becomes quite obvious that, of course, reality has giant waves just as we would experience them in each second, minute, hour, day, year, lifetime. Think about the highs and lows you go through constantly. Now imagine you are a larger entity, like a global society, or the earth in general. You would still experience waves except in your own relative scale. If that is true then what is coming. We should be able to see something happening already.

So where we go from here is endless. This is where all the theorists come in an try to predict what may happen. Maybe we find enlightenment, maybe we go extinct, maybe the universe starts over, maybe we flip and become the opposite portion of the universe for a while. This sort of thinking was a place I spent much of my time. But as I said before it is also a place I have moved away from. I began to realize the delusional nature of it. The idea hit me that I am wasting my time and energy trying to predict the future when the truth was the only thing compelling me to do that was my fear of it. This is why the predictions are always so, messy. If we were content with our own reality and mortality then why would we need to look anywhere else for anything else?

We look because we are afraid, we are afraid because we are ignorant of who we really are. Who we really are is part of the infinite existence. You have lived infinite times, including this one. This is not new to you, which is why any revelation feels more like remembering. We are reality and we must exist in all forms. In you exists all things. You can change your consciousness in a heartbeat from human person in reality to the entity of all reality itself. You are it. There is no one out here, this is not my typing, believe it or not its actually a reflection of your mind. That is the truth. But its also true that it is just out there, that I am just writing it. We are all consciousness and infinitely connected. This was just a reminder. :D

The path of life and death

2010-03-01T01:44:00.001-08:00

Lately as I contemplate death and the near death experiences myself and others around me have had, I realized how greatful I am for the fact that I have survived all these years. There are many times that one wrong move would have ended my life but, as they say, life finds a way.

As these ideas dawn on me I compare them to ideas of quantum reality. I started to ask - "why me? why did I survive and why do others die? why did I not die?". This line of thinking inevitably lead me to the realization that we do indeed die every minute of our lives. All those ignorant tricks that should have killed you, did. If you die every moment then how are you still living? As reality splits off into all possibilities we must consider that we experience death in each moment as our new self is born.

You may say that this sounds wrong because why do other people die around you and do not continue with life. Life appears to end but does indeed continue. Death is merely a point of perception. Though we may move through our life with these possible deaths that does not mean that the bodily form you are in doesn't expire. It does cease to take the form it is in, but it moves into other forms. The big question is where do I go after this body dies?

If you think about dying every possible way through your life yet still find yourself experiencing the living experience then you should start to see that you are not your body. You are merely experiencing this event in life. The real question is "who are you?". We forget who we are. We are infinite life experiencing itself. To see this you must realize that you are death and life on all levels, not just this life. I think this can be hard to do for most people because most souls develop a strong identification with their body and believe so whole heartily that they are their body that they fear death.

I do not say for certain that i know where you go when you die but if you need to ask that question then you should ask where you are when your living. It is not an easy question to answer. I think that is because you are everywhere. When you die you will still be everywhere. Its hard for people to see how we are all one until you actually start to look at these questions. I dont think we are separate, only our bodies and souls appear to be.

Next time you are sitting with a friend or at work or just with other people, try to imagine your observing consciousness inside each of them. Try to see that their consciousness in that moment is the same as the one inside of you. If you can fathom that and see it then your on your way to seeing oneness. Expand that to the trees, to the rocks, to the air, to the wind and water. See that all this life is you and it is its specific nature for a reason, just as you are.

What would it be like to be infinite? Ponder that for a while. Hopefully you will find yourself staring at reality and seeing that it represents exactly what it would be like to be infinite. So if you are part of infinity, then you are infinity, but within that you also have a finite part to experience. And thus is the life of infinite life. The path of life and death.

The New Golden Beta Male Age

2010-01-06T03:51:00.001-08:00

There is an idea that there are only two responses in life. Fight or Flight. We need a new way and I think the new-age and metaphysics community is bringing an ancient spiritual secret back to life. The Secret is flow. And its about time we decided to truely go with the flow.

In social animals, the alpha male is the individual in the community with the highest rank. He controls groups and his external environment and this makes him the protector. I think we are reaching a level where we understand we dont need this level of consciousness. And that this consciousness in fact limits our potential by its very nature. Along with this we can also see that "Flight" or fleeing, is also fruitless. Fear that makes creatures run or fight is meant for something more in the human being. We have the unique privilege to discover this unique nature called the human experience. Fear is a guide for the inner nature. Fear does not take place in your soul. It is an energy that speaks to you. It speaks to you constantly.

This new age of being I like to call, the age of the beta male. What I mean by beta is is we are a work in progress. A beta male would realize this fact and allow himself/herself to be changed by reality itself. Just as you would call a piece of software that is still in development. We are a beta version under constant development and meant for higher purpose. Individually as humans we grow one moment at a time. Minute by minute we are affected by the world around us and we become new people with every beat of our heart. We are doing this collectively as a species. We are really young as a species so the relationship we have with life is that of a teenager. We are scared, not sure what the world will have waiting for us when we actually decide to go with it, and wish someone would just pay our bills and hug us. Its time to take your life into your hands and let the universe show you yourself in the multicolored pool of its infinite waters.

They say the universe is expanding. We are the universe. We are all experiencing growing together and growing wiser together at the same time. I think this is why groups will feel like there is a great awakening happening from time to time. And it may be more true than we realize. Though it may be limited to bursts of awakenings, as the 60's hippy revolution and even the renascence, none the less we are walking on the water and experiencing the waves of life that reveal our true potential and purpose.

So what has people running to the hills over 2012? This is the same mode of fear we jump into when we are faced with a real truth. In this case it would be the fact we all die and that we dont yet know what happens after. That the unknown is more prevalent than the known. If you get over that nature then you are left realizing there are infinite possibilities, infinite lives to live.

Here is a link to an old documentary I made about the mayan calendar and 2012. Its basic info and my perception of reality has shifted greatly since then. But its worth a watch if you have 10 minutes to spare.
http://www.bing.com/videos/watch/video/the-mayan-calendar-2012-and-beyond-full/3jpz6ghv?from=sharepermalink

They say at 2012 the world with end as you know it. But that is a vague statement. So many people live in fear that they automatically assume that means it will be destroyed. This is their current nature so this is all they can see. The truth is that the earth is always ending as we know it. Because how we know it keeps changing. I think we may be destined for a significant change as we always seem to be. Though this does not mean totally annihilation of the physical world. It could mean an annihilation of our inner reality. Apocalypse literally means a revealing. When the inner reality changes the outer one changes too. Afterall the universe is a reflection of your soul.

The truth will set you free.

New Growth

2010-01-04T03:44:00.001-08:00

Today as I searched I was drawn into researching the Buddha. While reading his biography on wikipedia I kept coming into phrases and words that I had no idea what they were. Wikipedia makes them links so I would follow them and discover what the phrase was. To say the least I found some wonderful information. It dawned on me that I hadnt been able to look at buddhism and buddhist teachings because of my feelings toward religions. I still dont think someone should dedicate their lives to a religion but I do agree with dedicating ones life to spiritual growth and enlightenment. If its found in religions then it makes sense why many choose that path. Now I see myself more as Buddha himself in reflection. To some this may sound delusional but its true that we can connect to others states of being. The teachings of Buddha are an extension of that being. I plan to study them more.

Something else came up tonight that I found rather interesting. I often think of lions and eagles and this brought me to the idea of a spirit animal. Ive wondered for some time what mine would be so I did a quick google search on "How to find your spirit animal". They suggested meditating then asking your animal to make itself present to you. I find the more present you are to your moment the more you can get from it. It dawned on me that I may think of lions and eagles often, which are spirit guides, but there is also the real animals that are present to your life." The lion represents feminine energies. It means taking the easy way to meet your goals, by not confronting them head on." I know in my life I am using this specific state often. Fighting problems head on is not the way to being awake. I let them be as they will. "Those with an Eagle totem need to have an involvement with creation; a willingness to experience extremes; a willingness to use your ability even if it means getting "scorched" a little as you fly high; a willingness to seek out your true emotions." I can see why these two show up to me often and why I regularly grow my hair out (Lions Mane). The one that I found surprising was the Guinea Pig.

I recently received a guinea pig for Christmas. Since he has been with me I have been nurturing him. I feel what he feels, feed him, clean his cage, hang out with him, talk to him, and generally give him what he needs to be healthy, best I can. He feels like a child to me because he depends on me to be there for him. This is a live spirit totem that I have attracted into my life. "You can have several animal guides through out your life. Sometimes an animal guide will come into your life for a short period of time, and then be replaced by another depending on the journey or direction you are headed toward." Guinea Pigs specifically are said to bring in like minded people into your life. When this totem appears, it signals a time to explore new possibilities, a time to open (or reopen) spiritual doors. It also brings a cautionary message: are you being too solitary in your spiritual practices? Do you need to seek out groups to help with your healing work? The nature of the animal is what is meant to be seen in yourself.

I thought about what animals I had thought of recently or that came to me in a story and realized how relevant they were. Even my friends have a large dog, known to be a great protector. This is their spirit animal and it represents to a T their lives and who they are. Its quite amazing to see. We had a cat once, and I try to remember all those who have cats and what they are like.

Ive listened to Terrance Mckenna speak about the I-Ching and his Well known Timewave theory is based on the 64 grid hexagram of the iching. I decided to do some researching on the I-Ching. The I-Ching is an ancient Chinese divination system which is used to gain insight into a question or situation by way of a standardized process. They say on the wikipedia page that diviners ascertain their interpretations by reading signs, events, or omens, or through alleged contact with a supernatural agency. I already know we all have this contact but I also know most people tend not to attempt to read what reality is saying. The way the original I-Ching is performed is a long mathematical system. It takes about 15 minutes to come out with the Hexagram that has a special meaning. I suspect that long process was used in order to look more official or scientific. The reality is you dont need that. You can actually do it however you like. I decided to try my own method. I took some long sticks and some that I broke in half. I would play with them while focusing on my intention, or on nothing at all. When I would drop a stick I would leave it till enough fall to form the whole hexagram. When I didn't focus on anything the divination told me where I am currently in my life. I found that rather interesting. When I focused on the question "Where do I go from here" the divination proceeded to explain exactly what I needed to hear. Each set of sticks in the hexagram have a specific meaning. When you put them all together they mean something specific.

I think the idea behind the I-Ching is the same as the animal totem and Buddha. They are all guides. They are living mirrors to your soul. Just as thoughts are and just as everything is. One perspective is that we are a living hologram. Your body is included in the exterior world and so it is a great indicator of the nature of your soul. When your thoughts are nothing but frustration, anger, and pain, then that is a direct message to you about the state of your nature. You are meant to observe this and grow. My friend Joe, the Guinea pig, will serve me well on my journey. I will repay him and honor him for this gift. I think from now I will wake up more to these same relationships with people and life. What their current nature is meant to show me for myself and what I am meant to show them.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gautama_Buddha Here is the page on buddha I referred to

http://www.linsdomain.com/totems.htm Heres the link to the animal totem page. There is a list at the bottom with a lot of them. click them to read a bit about what they represent from a spiritual perspective.

http://www.akirarabelais.com/i/i.html Here is a link to a page on the I Ching. You can use your own divination system or try mine. youtube has a few videos of people explaining their own way. I would drop 3 sticks. The order they fall in is the order of the first row. Then drop 3 more. This is the order of the second. This will give you the proper hex and an explanation of it. Read the whole explanation because, like I said, each still means something specific.

Do all dead celebrities die?

2009-12-28T14:42:00.001-08:00

I think the feelings we go through when anyone dies are the same. We find it hard to believe. When my step father passed away when I was a child I remember feeling like he could walk into the room any minute. After the truth sinks in its no longer a question anymore. Celebrities however are a whole different ballgame.

If you take in the odds of all celebrities actually dieing when the news reports it then you would find that even logically not all of them would. People like Elvis, Michael jackson, Saddam Hussein, Hitler. Tupac, and Andy Kaufman are just some of the suspected individuals who fake their own deaths. There are subcultures of investigators that seem to find evidence and testimony to suggest they lived much longer than we "know".

Its easy to imagine how and why someone who is massively famous could fake their own death and escape to a life of solitude and relative peace. As you become famous your life shifts from one of being a bystander to being a focal point for everyone around you. You cannot walk the street without being confronted by all types of people. People who hate you, love you, stalk you, or just know of you. If this amount of attention and energy is unappealing to you all the time then you turn into a bit of a hermit. Only coming out for work. Celebrities these days know it quite well. They walk down the streets wearing sunglasses, beards, hats. All manner of concealing head ware to avoid being spotted and instead choose to be an unknown individual again.

This is an image of Hitler on the right and him again after passing away as an old man in argentina. The suspicion is that he and his wife escaped and killed one of his doubles in place.

When you are oblivious to the arguments for a living celebrity such as Elvis, it just sounds silly. When you take the time to look at the evidence and the testimony you start to realize its completely possible. The feeling I got when I realized this is I felt cheated from something. These great men and women that have done so much for us leave in order to regain their freedom. When we experience what a great person has to give we experience that within ourselves. For people like Hitler and Saddam the effects are just the opposite. They are like beacons of duality. Showing us the greatness we also have within us and the darkness we are capable of.

A good thing to take away from this is knowing that you dont need to know what happened to them. Remember who you are and learn from the truth you see in front of you. If you spend your life trying to investigate something like that then you have become so identified with needing to know that you have lost yourself to it. Let go and remember who you are and be the beacon you choose to be.

If you do become intregued just do some searching.

Check out this video on the Speculation if elvis is dead or alive.

Elvis is Alive? Latest in Fox 8 News: Part-1 - Funny videos are here

And here is my own comparison image of Elvis Presley and suggested living elvis. They say in the video he took in his brothers name, Jesse Presle. This is pretty wild though. Im an artist and characters are my focus normally so I have a keen eye for detail. This def looks like an older elvis! You have to keep in mind too when looking at these that when you are younger your skin is thicker. When you become older is becomes thinner. This is why wrinkles are more pronounced, muscle shapes ar emore rigid. And since he most lilkely wasnt trying to keep up on his good looks he looks rougher. Elvis prob spent the rest of his days, if he isnt still alive, having fun, drinking, and trying all the new drugs that came out.

What I want to see is a "dead" celebrity finally come back to life. It would be pretty amazing to say the least.

Manifesting what you want is remarkably natural

2009-12-26T21:35:00.000-08:00

I admit this is a bit of an elusive title. I base it on the idea that we manifest constantly. If we align ourselves with what is right, bright and true then we cant help but manifest what we desire. We manifest constantly but, because we live a constant stream of manifesting, we tend to become normalized to it and forget that the strings of events start from our consciousness and move outward (or inward depending on how you look at it). Ive been noticing things happening lately that stood out to me rather clearly.

A couple of posts ago I described how I have become interested in the writings of Hunter S. Thompson as well as writing an epic story of my own. I started to realize that I indeed wanted to know how to write better. I want to know how stories are formed and characters are developed. How do I tell this remarkable story I have but which has no real meat to it. As I went through that realization I also thought about high school and all the great things it had to offer. It was just a taste of what learning from a master was about. Here are people ready to teach us, at the very least, the basics and fundamentals that would lead us down a path. I happened to choose the direction of art early on. When I was formulating the idea that high school had so many gifts I wished I could go back and take advantage of more of them. I realize that path would mean i wouldn't be where I am so its pointless to wish for something like that. Instead I decided to remain open to the idea of learning more in this new and bright direction.

Yesterday, on Christmas, I ate dinner at my friends house. This was out of the norm for me but it was a great change-up. I hadn't been to Glenn's house before but it was such a fun experience. There were kids playing, family laughing and having fun together, people playing guitars and jamming together, and all sorts of good times. I knew roughly half the people there, so there was still a lot of newness to be had. As we sat down to dinner I placed myself next to my friend Len (not to be confused with Glenn). On the other side of me sat an older woman who turned out to be Glenn's mother in law. As the havoc of the feast escalated into delicious joy and local conversations I found myself having quite a pleasant and fascinating conversation with Linda, Glenn's mother in law. We started our conversation on mutual interests, starting in watercolor and moving into other areas of the creative arts. As the conversation flowed I told her about my wish to grow as a writer. She then injected that she was a high school English teacher at one point then went to college to learn to teach adults. I couldn't believe what I was hearing. This is a person who has taken the other path I now wish to explore and can help me to learn and grow along the way.

I found myself here in this place with this person all because I stayed open to the opportunity. I wont say thats the only reason. I arrived in this place by following a path of positive energy rather than negative energy. This is certainly a large key factor.

Another event happened today that inspired me to write on these ideas. I was walking down the street toward town to buy some guinea pig food for my new Christmas present I lovingly named Joe Dirt. As I walked a thought popped into my head about a business partner that I went and met with. We agreed that his company would provide web programming services for me on my projects. This would enable me to effectively make full websites for my customers by sticking to what I do best, the designs. As I thought about him, and how I haven't used those services, no more than 20 feet later their one and only company car took the corner right in front of me. I connected the dots and got a big jolly grin. It felt like god tickling me from the inside out. This to me was a reminder that the door to that opportunity is still open.

Its amazing what we can do when we are in relative control of ourselves. People, not yet awake to themselves, may think you need to know everything about a situation to choose the right path, and in a sense that's true. its just not true in the mode of a sleeper. We don't need to know specifically what each path will have waiting for us if we choose it. Through experience and practicing being aware, we can truly learn what different energies are able to do for us and what their limitations are. All fear can give you is what fear has to offer. When you give into it and end up with the results it can only give, you see it as it truly is.

All ventures in this life are ways of exploring ourselves. I chose art when I was young and have gone quite in depth with it over the years. The relationship I have with art is the relationship I have with myself. Moving into writing with intentions of growing is no different . But the relationship is just beginning. At one point I didn't call myself an artist till the relationship matured enough. The depths people can go in to with each path can lend to the ego. I think this is precisely why people choose one thing over another. Their ego identifies with something early on and if its given energy then over the years it will grow. I stuck with art, someone else might stick with writing, but its the very same as someone sticking with being a victim. Eventually this is who you see yourself as. And letting go of that becomes a lot of work. I see I am not only an artist. I am anything I want to be in any moment. And manifesting follows.

While I was searching for images to finalize this post I found this site that has a very relevant post. Its right on the same lines as this post. I searched for an image of "self" and found it. Take a read here http://www.integralworld.net/mcintosh4.html

Religions without spirit, Spirituality without religion

2009-12-24T12:31:00.001-08:00

The idea that being within a religion is participating in a spiritual life has faded. No doubt some people still use religion for its true intention but for the most part it is lost to history. The goal these days, it seems, is not to connect more with our spiritual nature but rather with the idea of being apart of a specific religion.

I believe religions were initially invented as a way to hold on and share real truth. Spread the wealth as it were. These were spiritual people connected to god through metaphoric stories and deep inner work. Masters and teachers were seen as guides rather than authorities. Real communion involved groups of people coming together to grow with one another. It is also known that religions were used as ways to control groups of people.

These days you have a number of religious participants ready to bang on your door and get you to come join them. This is not participating in a spiritual life, this is participating in what it means to be religious. Religions are full of people who have identified who they are with their religion. When you question their religion you are picking a fight with their self identity and sleeping people tend to lash out intensely in those cases. Ask yourself if a spiritual person would feel the need to lash out. Though spiritual people also find themselves identified with something in life, they know it is their duty to let go and grow. They may even find themselves identified with the idea of being more spiritual than others.

There is another rift in the human species at the moment. Its the idea that provades much, if not most, of society today. Its the idea that you are either spiritual or not. This is what I think keeps most people asleep to themselves and a free life. The fact is we are all living spiritual lives to one degree or another. Whether you deny it or accept it is up to you. In societies eyes there is being religious, spiritual, scientific, etc. Its this sort of class based thinking that I think has ruined our perceptions of real life.

There is a new awakening taking place that you can visibly see. People are going around the bend to find the new way to look at life. Science has shown us many new ways to look at life and thus ourselves. Because of this our consciousness over the past hundred years or more has shifted to a mode of thinking that has a vague bleak connection to a godless reality. I think new age thinking and metaphysics is our natural attempt to find our way back to ourselves and our spiritual connection to all of reality. We exist in scientific consciousness and thus must move back to our true selves from this point.

I think the religions of the world are stuck (very much in the same case as my previous article described). God works through you whether you are aware of it or not. It seems most of society goes through life not knowing what god looks like. They even deny he exists. How can you deny something existing if you dont know what it is? Its like a fish denying that water exists. The fish doesnt realize he lives in water and is made of water. That is real ignorance. Science unknowingly describes much conscious reality. These truths serves us greatly but because they are seen as an authority people take on that mode of thinking. This is why acting as an authority is dangerous. They are observing consciousness on so many of its levels Its startling that they can miss god in all of it? They miss it because they are disconnected from it within themselves. Searching for answers through science will inevitably result in finding our true nature.

I think we are due for a great awakening. I call it an awakening because it feels like remembering. When you go to sleep, you drift off into dreams and explore that world. When you come back you have to remember who you are. You awaken. We are all searching for ourselves whether we admit it, outwardly ask for it, or even deny it. "Every act, seen or unseen, is an attempt to learn more about ourselves." The few years ahead look like they will be rough. But we are on a collision coarse with ourselves. I think there is great hope in that.

"Physician Heal Thyself" ~ Jesus Christ

2009-12-23T17:46:00.000-08:00

As I listened to an interview with well known DMT molecule researcher Richard Strassman I couldnt help but wonder if he himself had taken the drug, besides it naturally occuring in his body that was. In the interview he was asked directly from the female host who sounded like an early 90's late night radio host for some sexy station that tries hard to sound turned on and wanting "Did you yourself participate in those kinda of recreational activities?"

"Oh.. I.. I.. I have a lot of friends that were experimenting with those drugs and I would hang out with them, uh.. you know, pretty regularly. I was intrigued at the profundity of the effects and the similarities of the states people were having." He answered her question with a stutter at first. I suppose he was nervous at the question. This is what had me wondering if he himself did or did not try them, truthfully. I am not concerned morally if he did or didn't but it had me thinking how should I take this in. How much value should I place on this character either way. If he did in fact not try DMT, LSD or other psycadelics for that matter, then how valid was his opinion?

I speak from the perspective of someone who has indeed tried a number of psychedelics and had my own unique experiences with them. After all, my interest in alter states and what they provide is what leads me continually to listen to interviews such as these. I think its a great and enjoyable, and at times disturbing, way to find yourself. When you realize your god and you see nothing but infinity around you, you tend to not forget an experience like that. It rips open your view of the world and mutates it into something shockingly brilliant. People who try psycadelics, if they dont run into the nearest hidy hole to get away from themselves, tend to open up to a spiritual life.

I think either way Dr Strassman has a valid perspective through mear observation. His scientific approach does leave us with accounts of experience and his observations of those experiences. Though his findings are valid from his perspective, I find them lacking in the face of real experience. He is mearly a log keeper of the real deal that his patient guinea pigs got first hand. So what makes him a doctor? Going to school and understanding chemical reactions is fine and dandy. It serves its purpose. But does that make his interpretations any more applicable? In my eyes doctors and scientists go first. They find the path and develop the trails for us to follow in. They are our heroes and leaders. But what happens when they setup basecamp and send others ahead to have the experience themselves? Is this why society is so ill? Have our doctors retreated from the front lines in order to maintain something, yet the majority still insist on following them? Why do would our "leaders" do this?

Do doctors care more about how they are taken by others than what they are exploring? The scientific community will make or break you if you attempt to participate. I suspect people like Strassman who "know" their careers hang on the very way they are accepted would rather play by the rules than dive in head first. This may be why Im more attracted to people who do go first, willingly or not. Terrence Mckenna, one of my favorite speakers, was happy to go first. His insights and depth with the tales of dreamscapes and experience are literal expressions of the drugs themselves. His willingness to let go and allow the drugs to alter his consciousness and perceptions changed him into the being he became.

You may be thinking that doctors cant solve all the mental and physical illness plagueing humans by taking drugs first. At this moment in time I think that is true. I think they are stuck in one spot too afraid to move. How can they cure what is changing by staying in one place? Its like trying to dig your feet into the rockbed of a river. You refuse to move because all the other people around tell you they wont accept you if you dont do it too. The pressure of the water is stressful. Some people hold onto the edges of the river and the doctors tell them how to do it right. They position them differently on the edge and see how that changes things.

At one point in our history we didnt have doctors. Doctors play by scientific rules. They swim in scientific doctrine. Before there were scientists there were shamans. Shamans were the men who traveled the cosmos before others were guided. We seem to have switched out shamans for doctors. Look at the past hundred years and how the most popular drugs are outlawed, we live in an age of prohibition. The drugs that are given are controlled substances.

I imagine a future where science as we know it now is long gone. And the time we experience now is known as the era of ignorance. A brutal disruption of healthy flowing life by shear pig headedness. Where wheelers and dealers are the leaders and the cattle buy whatever is sold. Where the ones who resist the most are seen as powerful and strong. We live in the age of commercialism and because of this have lost a real connection with reality, to the point where most people dont see god in everything they experience. Where so many people would rather not think instead of searching.

We are told we are limited. That our bodies die and so do we. And that is that. What if you knew you were infinite? That you were everyone and everything. That your body doesn't stop at your skin. That your mind isnt restricted to your brain, but is literally everything. How would your life change? No doubt thats a scary thought to even ponder for most. The sense of freedom you would find yourself in hurts. It would feel like you just came up from the pressures of living 16000 feet under water and tried standing on land. Evolutionary theories tell us this is exactly what we did. I'm not saying science is all bad. Its merely stuck. Its taken on an egoic role of importance and it doesn't want to change. But it will. Its already changing by me writing this.

So what happens when everyone gets sick of being sick? When everyone gets tired of not knowing who to trust and where real leaders exist. We turn inward. We become the shaman. As buddha said "Perception is everything [and] Your health is in your care". You are the victim of the rules you live by. When you see that the act of the holding to the edge of the river or digging your feet into its floor is futile and harmful you see that you have a choice. Hold on, or let go. Who then is your leader? You are.

My Story and Hunter S Thompson

2009-12-22T13:15:00.000-08:00

"We were somewhere around Barstow on the edge of the desert when the drugs began to take hold." This first powerful and gripping sentence from page 1 of Fear and loathing in las vegas by Hunter Thompson is so compelling and intriguing that I couldnt help but want more. Recently Ive developed an interest in the writing style of the late crazed wordsmith. His drug enduced tales are some of the finest Gonzo journalism youll find. Mainly because he invented it. Its a mix of fiction and non fiction that hones in on the truth of such conditions and the skewed perspectives of the times with brutal force and incists you come along for the ride. Im not much of a writer but I enjoy the communication abilities of a good doctor of the written word. Words form concepts and concepts form intention and story and plot and so on and so on into the human mind. At my level of experience I think a good writer tells a story that pulls you in rather than gently pushes. Whether that story is fact, fiction, small or big it must be a vortex into the abyss of the specific experience. I find Hunters work very interesting. Its well written and keeps the mind turning. As shocking as some of the material is the truth of it is hard to miss.

Ive written many words, had many conversations, and studied many subjects. Some of which to a major depth that many people have yet to realize is available if only they will take the path. Writing is one that I find increasingly more fascinating. Its a field that is far from impossible to enter into. All manner of creatures have made it their playground. Writing, as all manners of creation are, is a tool that effects change in the universe. Another way to flap our wings as a butterfly effects the winds. Its another tool for reaching outward with our consciousness. Asking god for more feedback so that we may wake up and remember who and what we are once again. With this realization I ask myself. Why write? What am I seeking to remember? Its these very questions that makes me realize Ive already begun to forget. Waves of waking up and falling asleep to myself are like ghosts wandering the hallways of a creepy old house.

2 Weeks ago the dots of a story began to connect in my mind. I played with many ideas that struck me as powerful and significant. I still wonder why this story feels so compelling to me. How do I tell it? Its so huge and Im amateur at story telling. Heck I dont even read books and have never attempted to even read a small story in a comic book. Is this mode of thinking because a society gone wrong? Or is it the process of consciousness waking up to itself. If reading to gain information was so important then why dont I seem to have that capacity? As our universe expands and consciousness grows it becomes increasingly more complex. This means you dont have to travel as far to receive the same amount of information. Could this be why people these days dont read? Information travels faster and stronger without the need for decoding written words. Listening and seeing are much faster modes of data download. Writing seems to be an ancient form we still need to keep around. Yet it does not evolve at the same rate as other mediums. You could say the same thing about our bodies and minds. Though our bodies still evolve they evolve at a much slower rate than our minds. We shift identities moment to moment as new information is assimilated and we discover something new within.

So how does a drugged psychotic writer develop a style of writing that makes him a functioning story teller? Did he go to school and find good form? Or did he simply apply himself to projects and studied his favorite writers and a style emerged from dark shadows. I expect any good writer would. This is not a science its an art. Just as life is not a science its an art. Though the majority of evangelical scientists would disagree. Words spill from the lips of gods. We seem to be able to choose which gods we want to hear. And thus is art.

So here I am. I find myself writing to you, this blog, the universe - asking for the starting point. But I already know, its here now. Life is staring me in the face and it hears me instantly. Giving me the next step if I will only open up to it. I hear a voice. "Look at your life man. Look at the opportunities your being given. Your growing, it takes time. Have faith you are being guided and let the need for it to be done now go. The journey is the point, not the finish line. When you get to the finish the next race begins." Ok. Ill walk this path, through the thick of the quick sand. Trying not to resist and sink. But stay on the surface and move forward into the unknown depths of another creative outlet. I wont need to find my way, like a seductive temptress it will be unveiled and ready to have me.

We the conflicted ones...

2009-07-06T23:39:00.000-07:00

I had a new moment of lost again and realized something that I wanted to share with you. We find ourselves in a moment of pain or fear and battle with it in that moment. What we battle with are the very things that keep the battle going. We pretend to not be in fear, we tell ourselves "Im smart, im a good person, im good looking, im happy", and so on. But there is a little thought every time from the depths that says the opposite. "Umm, your not very smart or clever, your not really worthy enough to have an opinion, your ugly, that person was right about you." We attempt to pump ourselves up to feel better about ourselves and it only serves to pull us down. That is our weapon. The fear is not gone, in fact it grows more powerful. The weapons you used against the fear were given to you by fear! This interaction of light and dark forces inside of ourselves is like a vortex pulling you in. Perception is creating the experience.

In the moment of feeling lost I realized inside of my mind existed a constant jumble of emotions and thoughts that were conflicted. I remembered what I have said and what others have said to me when feeling lost; "Where do i start?" How does one start to discover freedom in a prison?

Seeing that fear is in controll changes everything. Once you see, you have begun to change your relationship with it. To start seeing you must become observant and stop yourself and see what is driving you. Guy Finley calls this 'stopping the first response'. The first response is a mechanism in us that reacts right away. You might say something, hit someone, make a joke, kick something, watch a movie, pull grass out of the ground, jump onto a computer game and start killing things. We dont see that we hurt people through this mechanism. Someone says something to you and your first response is to say something and you see their face change or their tone change. You might see that you have just hurt that person because you are in pain. We are using fears weapons once again and we dont even know it. You stop yourself when you get that urge and you see what is asking for you to do that. Sometimes you do it anyway but you stop yourself the next time because you glimpsed it a little. Realize that when we are doing this we are answering fear. If we truly want to become free then we must change our relationship with fear.

What we need to do after we see is to learn to stop feeding it power. Let go of needing to fight. We seem to find ourselves minutes, weeks, years down the road, completely conflicted and have no idea about true freedom anymore. We are lost in the prison of our mind. We have fed it so much power through the war inside of ourselves that we cannot see the light of day.

What helped me to come back to the now and let go of the conflict was to first see it and then to realize that it would pass me by if i just let it. Its a strange thing that we see a fear come up and we stand in front of it and say "Hey you! Fear, I don't like you. That's right, your just pain and suffering and Im gonna fight you." We dont realize that in this very moment we are feeding a fire and asking for more. It wants to pull us down and we participate in it! Of course we must do this in order to learn. The problem comes when we never give up on the battle. We fight that battle till the end of time because that's what we think we are meant to do. We actually start to identify with that feeling so much that we cant fathom it not being there. Then where do you start? Where do you start when there is no other reality to experience? You have already decided that this is it. Why try? So you keep fighting, living in misery. Letting fear tell you where to go and what to do. We become stale in that life because we don't know how to move into new areas. We actually start to live in a world of Hell.

Ignorance is the jailer in our prison. Ignorance is what digs the hole that we fall in to. Ignorance is a black hole that sucks in all light. To live that divine life you must accept that you are subject to this. If you do not admit your in pain, that you have fear then it will never change. If you can see your in pain but instantly ask yourself "is this really the answer or just some guy tooting his own horn". Realize what is saying that inside of you! That's fear giving you a weapon to fight off more pain. Because the only way to truly become free, is to let yourself be free. Only then can you change it all.

Lets jump to a matrix metaphore. If your life is the spoon, and you are attempting to control your life (bend the spoon) through your doing and thinking, then you will never bend the spoon. Its impossible. It will only cause you more and more pain. Try to realize the spoon doesn't need to be bent by you. Realize the hole that your in is not really there. And the prison doors are wide hope for you if you would simply let yourself be in a new moment, unknown to you previously. We seem to lack faith in those dark moments. In the bible jesus walked on water, the did this simply through faith. If we look at that story as a metaphore you can see the same thing we do in our lives.

Peter and the deciples are in the boat and jesus appears to be walking on water. Peter takes Jesus' hand and is walking on water himself. Peter sees a wind coming toward him, becomes scared, and falls into the water yelling "lord save me!". Jesus takes his hand and helps him into the boat. They tell Jesus "You truly are the son of god". You can start to see some more sense in that story when you put yourself in the place of the characters.

We will meet ourselves in the infinite singular moment

2008-10-19T17:56:00.000-07:00

I was listening to Paul Levy interview and he made the analogy of many grains of sugar dissolving in water one by one, until the last grain combines with all the rest to form a crystal, sort of like the straw that broke the camels back. See I think that the mayan calendar and the timewave zero ideas are all about how fast the changes are taking place. i know the timewave is all about a fractal growth of compounding experiences. It does seem that the crystals are happening faster. That experiences in time are quickening, the termed coined by coast to coast radio host art bell.

His book describes the ideas of living through threats of global economy, government, aids, ebola, nuclear terrorism, volcanos and earthquakes. And because of these experiences we will soon see increased spiritual awareness. The mayan calendar and the timewave zero effect both describe the condensing of experiences into smaller and smaller instances of time. Effectively forcing the higher conscious beings to experiences time faster and faster into what seems to be an infinite moment where we are fully in the singular moment.

I think this idea is the same as how buddha achieved enlightenment. Buddhism is not really a religion with a godhead. It is a way of learning to control ones mind. The buddha taught that the best way to live life is in the moment. The past is an illusion just as the future holds worry, doubt, and hope. The one singular moment is nirvana. I think this is how time stops, by perceiving that it doesn't exist. And i think we are growing toward that. I think that what we are experiencing is a desensitizing effect. The more concepts we are faced with the less pressure is put on us to live in the past or future, and thus we find ourselves in this moment.

I personally feel my being coming into closer and closer contact with what we might call enlightenment. I feel like we are all climbing a ladder of consciousness. Some people can see where others are and where they have been. They can also look to see where they are going and what is to come.

I wonder if I am the only one experiencing life more and more as a single individual. I dont run on the concept that I am an individual mind you, I cant even seem to feel other beings as seperate anymore. Or at least not very often. I find that the deeper I go into consciousness, awareness, philosophies, and oneness, the more I find myself alone. I think that this is due to the clarity one derives from such experiences. When we go head first into such things we find ourselves more and more in the single moment. We are less likely to become attached to anything and this even means people, ideas, and belongings. My head seems to be a jumble of random thoughts and concepts. But they seem to guide me to the single moment everytime they are called into action. They are used in moments that require reflection and judgement.

Personally I find myself alone in an oasis of wonder and excitement. Alone in the vast landscapes of my own mind. I cannot say that I am fully enlightened but I can feel myself coming closer to it. The singularity. i think this is what 2012 is, I think that I am god, you are all apart of me. But no more than you are god, and I am a part of you. Is the feeling of awakening a simple mans journey, or is it god waking up to discover himself exactly where he is? When I sit with a friend, or speak on the phone to a loved one, the conversation they present to me tends to be focused on such a low end of consciousness that I have no reply. I find myself bored with the mundane topics of our everyday existence. I either wait for the right moment, or make one, and start speaking as if from the very core and depths that my mind has traveled. I go directly to the level I am climbing and just as they lost me, I seem to loose them.

I think this is the gap that is forming between the awakened and the blind. Though some awakening individuals still find they are struggling with a particular stage, they are still climbing the ladder. I dont think the blind are out just yet though. I think if one does not go with the flow of trying to grow and understand then one is forced into it. Reality beckons us to grow and mature as the infinite being we are. We find it hard to accept and look at because it means accepting who and what we are. And thats a scary thing to accept for some people. The idea that we are the reality beckoning our own selves to wake up. So reality pushes and nudges, giving disease and pain in ones life in order to help them grow from it and wake up to concepts of the infinite being.

I increasingly find less attention pointed my way. Everyones attention seems to be focused on the hot spots reality is sharing; The election, martial law and illuminati, the NWO and economic slavery and so on. I suspect though that the friends I have developed are awakening too, and find just as I did, less and less of a need to argue with reality, but rather learn directly and to just go with the flow. I am myself finding it harder and harder to share with people, not out of fear but out of an inner need. It seems to have disappeared. I feel as if I have completed a circle and now Im along for the ride, climbing higher and higher perceptions of being. The questions I used to frequently get were of reality and oneness. I was happy to take time away from my regular painting to answer everything. The questions slowly stopped coming, and I can only hope that this is because i no longer have a need for them, and the senders have grown past that need as well. The answers given were accepted greatly, just to note.

Enlightenment is reaching high states of consciousness and living in the single moment. Yogis are noted as staying far away from society on their own spiritual journeys. They typically do not talk to people and find it difficult to share their knowledge and ideas. I think this is because the concepts and journeys they have traveled as so far ahead of the normal person that they are sort of like a genius. In the bible Jesus was said to appear to people sometimes as a child, sometimes as an elder. And I think this is one example of how to share with the beings around us. We must identify their levels and communicate with them on their level. Could it be that there are beings in this universe so far advanced then that communicating with us is almost an impossibility. But like I said earlier, I personally find it increasingly difficult to push myself to revert back to far surpassed concepts. Most of the time as well the person speaking to you has no wish to truly grow, and thus any advice given is advice gone unheard. Sometimes though It would be a great thing to know how to speak to someone who is really seeking to grow.

"As mentioned in a previous post, I feel that sharing can be a sneaky way of giving away any power you accrue.. This may be a subconscious sabotage of your own awakening. That is, if the material is really meaningful to you, why not keep it to yourself and incorporate it into your being, rather than trying to boost up your own ego? There is a fine line between helping another person and trying to paint yourself as an "awakened one".

Most of us have a genuine desire to awaken, but we've been conditioned to treat ourselves as marketable objects. This information can be used to create an "enlightened being" object for others to interact with, and that would be missing the point, I think." -seecubedeye [ A Journeyer from RedIceCreations private forum]

Another Quote from the same forum post.

"Arguments about politics, religion hook you and divert you away from higher ideas. There are some people I don't even talk to any more that used to be pretty good friends. Why scrabble in the mud when there's heaven to ponder. I just started reading Carlos Castaneda's The Art of Dreaming. Don Juan has explained that the world we perceive "is only one in a cluster of consecutive worlds, arranged like the layers of an onion." And that the art of dreaming, as he calls it, is to perceive those other energetic worlds. I saw something while I was on acid that must have been from one of those other worlds. It's not easy to find anyone willing to discuss something like that. So, there are fields of inquiry that make our time in these particular bodies interesting." -barbh [ A Journeyer from RedIceCreations private forum]

You think its 2008, its closer to the year 2,156

2008-10-07T03:34:00.000-07:00

The Gregorian calendar is the most widely used calendar in the world today. It was first proposed by the Calabrian doctor Aloysius Lilius, and decreed by Pope Gregory XIII, after whom it was named, on 24 February 1582 by papal bull Inter gravissimas. It is a reform of the Julian calendar. Years in the reformed calendar continue the numbering system of the Julian calendar, which are numbered from the traditional Incarnation year of Jesus, which has been labeled the "anno Domini" (AD) era, and is sometimes labeled the "common era" (CE), otherwise known as the "Christian Era". The Gregorian calendar system dropped 10 days to bring the calendar back into synchronization with the seasons and, to keep it there. But the calendar was being used as a year system and not a system for determining the place within the age. Even the idea of ages became a sort of pegan practice.

Then the question should be posed if Jesus never really existed then when is this calendar supposed to really start? What supposedly happened in the year zero that was so significant a calendar system was started from it. The Great Year is a 26,000 year cycle consisting of 12 ages, each 2,160 years long. The ages are determined by the poles of the earth and whatever constellation the north pole points to determine the age. We are set to enter the Aquarian age at some point but there is no exact timeline. According to different astrologers' calculations, approximated dates for entering the Age of Aquarius range from 1447 AD (Terry MacKinnell) to 3621 (John Addey). The start date for the Aquarian age is highly contentious and there is no uniform agreement upon the date or process leading from the previous Pisces age to the Aquarian age (or between any two ages).

The Mayan calendar ends on 2012 and that is when they believed the new age began. Energies, vibrations and consciousness shifts at this point to create a whole new paradigm for the state of life on earth. If the ages are said to be 2,150-2,160 years long and the age is ending in 4 years, it gets me thinking. Maybe Morpheus wasnt speaking to neo, maybe he was speaking to the one, the great oneness that is all life but for us most notably a oneness of humanity. I see the matrix as a waking up point, a catalyst for change. He said to neo, it is closer to the year 2199, than to the year 1999, as for the specific date they cannot be sure. For they had torched the skies in order to stop the machines. If the new age is starting in 4 years and the age length of 2,160 years is correct then we are really closer to the year 2,156. We have torched the skies indeed. Sent the practices of astrology and astronomy to very different corners of society. We couldnt get to the stars so we brought the stars to us, now they light our roads and homes. But what we fail to consider is with all this light all the time we have drownd out the night sky and a general knowledge of the relationship between our earthly space ship and the universe. But its coming back.

Halo

2008-10-01T19:10:00.001-07:00

A halo is an optical phenomenon that appears near or around the Sun or Moon. Jesus appears many time as having a halo over his head, as do angels. Christianity comes from sun worshiping which is why they worship on Sunday and why the son of god has a halo. But there are dozens of stories that match the jesus story
exactly, they are all sun worshiping stories.

A Solar Deity (also Sun God(dess)), is a deity who represents the sun, or an aspect of it. People have worshiped these for all of recorded history. Sun worship was exceptionally prevalent in ancient Egyptian religion. The earliest deities associated with the sun are Wadjet, Sekhmet, Hathor, Nut, Bast, Bat, and Menhit. First Hathor, and then Isis, give birth to and nurse Horus and Ra.

Another interesting Halo effect is the Great Year and the Precession of the Equinoxe. The whole concept of the ‘Great Year’ is based upon a genuine astronomical phenomenon. The Earth’s axis is not fixed and includes a slight ‘wobble’, properly called ‘nutation’, usually compared to that of a spinning-top when it is slowing down. This means that the poles describe circles, and that the North Pole does not always point to the same star or even any star.

The Great Year is a 26,000 year cycle consisting of 12 ages, each 2,160 years long. The ages are determined by the poles of the earth and whatever constellation the north pole points to determines the age. Cycles of time are the result of three movements of the Earth. The rotation around the Earth's axis causes day and night. Our yearly orbit around the sun brings the four seasons. The third movement comes as a result of the gravitational pull of the sun and moon which causes the earth to gyrate, shifting the poles at the rate of one degree every 72 years. The earth shifts so that in 26,000 years the north pole points to four different stars.

Haylo on Heroes: Hayden Panettiere and Milo Ventimiglia are dating. Hayden is the cute cheerleader noted as "save the cheerleader, save the world". She cannot die and is very special. Milo plays Peter Petrelli the hero who obsorbs others powers and also cannot die because of it. They resonate adam and eve to me. Milo has also completed a movie called "The Chaos Theory" which we see playing out all around us these days. and is the illuminati or masonic motto (i forget which). Hayden will also be in a movie called "Alpha and Omega" which is apparently a story about "Two mismatched young wolves thrown are together by circumstance". I Am Alpha and Omega (Ancient Greek: τὸ Α καὶ τὸ Ω) is an appellation of God in the Book of Revelation . http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alpha_and_Omega .

I find it quite fascinating that the the idea of a halo in whatever form is starting to resonate so strong. There is the obvious halo science fiction video game which won many awards and game of the year i dont know how many times. The game which is to be made into a 2009 movie halo, and is still uncertain if it will be created, focuses on a navy captain, his surviving marines, and a chemically-and-surgically-enhanced super soldier named John-117 "Master Chief" must find out what the Covenant, the genocidal alien race they are at war with, are looking for on the ring. "However, Halo holds more secrets than either side imagined." The Master Chief is thought to be the last SPARTAN alive. This character resonates strongly the Stallone character from Demolition Man John Spartan, a cryogenically frozen police officer who is unfroze and genetically enhanced, as well as his crime lord counterpart Wesley Snipes.

A strikingly in your face idea I stumbled upon is the logo from the game series HALO. Almost like Stanley Kubrick is speaking directly to me through the ripple of the resonating time wave (my name is dave, hal likes to say hi to dave). Hal 9000 (Heuristically programmed ALgorithmic Computer) is a fictional computer in Arthur C. Clarke's Space Odyssey saga. His name HAL clearly stands out and the all seeing eye that HAL was known for is clearly staring us in the face. The Eye of Providence or the all-seeing eye is a symbol showing an eye surrounded by rays of light or a glory. It is sometimes interpreted as representing the eye of God keeping watch on humankind. Halo the first game of the series was released in November 15. 2001. Which should stand right out because HAL is from the movie 2001 a space odyssey. So really the wave of reality seems to be quite obvious.

In the film Independence Day, when David Levinson opens up his laptop onboard the captured alien spaceship, HAL's interface camera is shown and the laptop says in HAL's voice, "Good Morning, Dave". Which is a fun piece of trivia but it makes me wonder if it is resonating to me this idea of the OCT 14 craft which is set to appear. This very well could be our Independence Day.

Halos are fictional megastructures and superweapons in the Halo video game series. They are alternately referred to as "Installations" by their AI monitors, and are collectively referred to as "the Array" by the installations' creators, the Forerunner. The Forerunners are a long-lost species which are first cryptically mentioned in Halo: Combat Evolved. Little is revealed about the Forerunner in the video games, but Halo 3 reveals to players that humanity is in fact related to the long-dead race; humanity is thus the only race which can "reclaim" the keys which activate the Halo network. The megastructure is a hollowed out planet that becomes a Ring World, which even the creators of the game felt was ripping off Larry Niven; best-known work is Ringworld (1970). He is interestingly the great-grandson of an oil-tycoon. Illuminati or Masonic ritual and religious beliefs might resonate this mind.

The story of Ringworld opens up in the year 2855 with a 200 year old character named Louis. The character takes something called BoosterSpice which is a drug that extends human life to near immortality. BoosterSpice seems to act the same exact way as Melange Spice from the novel DUNE. The most essential and valuable commodity in the universe, melange is a geriatric drug that gives the user a longer lifespan, greater vitality, and heightened awareness; it can also unlock prescience in some subjects, depending upon the dosage and the consumer's physiology. This prescience-enhancing property makes interstellar travel possible.

A sort of Spice substance has recently turned up in the Syncrosphere as they call it. Steve Wilner the videotronic guru of syncs recently edited together a video for a company that sells white powder gold. Which they claim brings Superhealth Through Modern Alchemy. The coined name is "monatomic", (man-atomic, atomic-man?). He seems to be promoting them like mad, I dont know if it means its good stuff or what.

An interesting HALO - HAL sync is the being that manages the installation, 343 Guilty Spark, who has been doing so for 101,217 local years, a local year being the amount of time it takes Threshold to orbit its star. This orb being is also a super computer that would be a spitting image of HAL if he was red and didnt fly around freely. The name Spark reminds me clearly of the All Spark from the Transformers movie. It is a mysterious cube that is the bringer of life.

Tom Cruise the Scientology Prophet and media presence actually became halo'ed in the film Minority Report. Being halo'ed is being put in a device that sustains your body, a ring is put on the head of the precriminal which puts them in a dream state. This also resonates with the headband used in the 13th floor when the lead character finds himself ourside of his simulation he takes off his headband that let him experience it. To complete the syncs it seems, in the movie The Demolition Man where John Spartan (Stallone) and Lt. Lenina Huxley (Sandra Bullock) want to have sex they simply put on headbands and have digital sense sex. And to top this cake one of our heroes from Independence day , as mentioned above, Will Smith, is now a great friend with Tom Cruise and is said to be a Scientologist now as well.

CERN, the last HALO on my list, is the large particle accelerator ring that is buried underground through France and Switzerland. CERN's main function is to provide the particle accelerators and other infrastructure needed for high-energy physics research. Not only is this giant experiment in the shape of a halo but Public chooses 'Halo' as its new name. In the article they go on to say:

"Halo conjures visions of radiant beauty, power and wisdom. The circle of light reflects the collider's form; it is a crowning achievement of science and engineering. It also gives more than a nod to the experiment's importance to religious debate.

The inside machinery of CERN and the headband semi reality resonate the movie Total Recall for me quite strongly.

The Terminator himself finds he is in a new reality, but he actually just woke up to his own reality, that is actually was a spy and the machine had jolted his frequency to see the truth yet again. This follows the same ideas that have been talked about few a few weeks now that we are possibly creator beings asleep. This is mentioned in the nines, in the 13th floor, in the matrix. Syncromystics seem to think this is the direction we are headed and i agree completely. I think we are the infinite oneness and all we need to do is graduate.

Conscious Steps

2008-10-01T07:48:00.000-07:00

Just to start our here is the 2012 London Olympic Logo. Deciphered by the late Rik Clay. The numbers suggest which order to read them in.

Zion, or Sion "Height" standard Hebrew Tziyyon, Tiberian Hebrew Tsiyyôn) is an archaic term that originally referred to a specific mountain near Jerusalem. To me these days it suggests a place of safety and the safest place is within ones own mind. Ideas of Shambala and Nirvana come to mind, Nirvana literally means "to cease blowing" or "extinguishing" as when a candle flame ceases to flicker (that is, of the uncontrolled passions) or "unbinding" (that is, of the 'Nirvana' is a Sanskritfetters of the mind). The mayans even spoke of 2012 as being in our minds, the place we must goto and the place where Quetzecoatal will return. The Mesoamerican Long Count calendar forms the basis for a New Age belief, first forecast by José Argüelles, that a cataclysm will take place on or about 21 December 2012, a forecast that mainstream Mayanist scholars consider a misinterpretation. As we approach the year 2012 – the end of time, according to the Mayan Calendar, it is imperative we become conscious of who we are and our place in the universe.

I feel that we are reaching a peak in consciousness, it takes place on dec 21, 2012. But I am not here to debate and try to understand the peak. I think that will come when it needs to. I am interested in trying to understand the newly acquired consciousness. What are the new ways of thinking or being that we have come in to.

It seems we are able more than ever to take a step back and see much larger pictures than ever before.

Synchronistic
Consciousness

"In my experience any possible connection is profound or meaningful. It might take time to see the gravity of a connection as we might lack context.

I have often read connects on other sync blogs and felt (in moments of weakness) like rolling my eyes because I feel "Now thats taking it a bit far" or "That's just silly". Usually it only takes a short while before I am totally thankful for the seemingly trivial connection.

Our minds are learning how consciousness bleeds in and out of everything and everywhen. What makes a connection that brings joy and insight is not the mind.

Its tricky for the conditioned mind and ego to let go of the old pattern.

Synchromysticism is not a belief system, idea, philosophy or interesting concept. It is a small facet of a new state of human consciousness.

It is fringe and dynamic now but in the future it will be no more than common sense. I suspect in some cultures this kind of thinking is already common sense."

- Jake Kotze

I have noticed this state of consciousness arise out of the depths of society. Censuses taken between 300–400 AD showed over 50 million people living in the combined eastern and western Roman empire. 1500 years later in the year 1900 the world population was an estimated 1.65 Billion. Only 100 years later we have reached 6.5 Billion, a parallel leap in syncronistic events must have also taken place.

Coined by Carl Jung, Synchronicity is the experience of two or more events which are causally unrelated occurring together in a meaningful manner. From the years when society had a low population i am sure syncs could be found. But these days with the population we have and the mass communication networks we have built information is traveling the globe at lightning fast speeds. It is becoming more and more aparent the syncronicities we are seeing because we seem to become increasingly more aware of it. Syncs to not just involve exchanged information they happen without our daily lives, an example might be if you flip through the channels and the words taken out of context on each channel seem to be speaking to you and telling you a message. We typically refer to them as "signs" or "a sign" that we are or arent supposed to do something. Jung coined the word to describe what he called "temporally coincident occurrences of acausal events." Jung variously described synchronicity as an "acausal connecting principle",
"meaningful coincidence" and "acausal parallelism".

Patterns of the Matrix itself "Butterfly effect" "Chaos Theory"

The phrase refers to the idea that a butterfly's wings might create tiny changes in the atmosphere that may ultimately alter the path of a tornado or delay, accelerate or even prevent the occurrence of a tornado in a certain location. The flapping wing represents a small change in the initial condition of the system, which causes a chain of events leading to large-scale alterations of events. Had the butterfly not flapped its wings, the trajectory of the system might have been vastly different. Of course the butterfly cannot literally cause a tornado. The kinetic energy in a tornado is enormously larger than the energy in the turbulence of a butterfly. The kinetic energy of a tornado is ultimately provided by the sun and the butterfly can only influence certain details of weather events in a chaotic manner.

The ideas of syncronistism make my mind drift to the point of seeing the matrix. We are becoming strikingly aware of the syncs in our daily lives and if we can take a step back when this happens we start to see the patterns of the matrix. I noticed a few events of this nature recently. A friend of mine was taged on facebook in a few photos and his girlfriends mother saw them. He was hanging out with a few friends and having a few laughs. The mother, for whatever reason, did not approve. I would regard this attitude as negative. She told her daughter of her displeasment, this info then fell to her boyfriend, so he took down the photos, the people who put them up became upset too, they talked to me, i talked to him, he talked to his girlfriend, and she talked to her mother. This is where the idea of black or white magic comes in. Using positive or negative words will cause this butterfly effect, this loop of karma *means doing* that eventually founds its way right back to the people who initiated each part.

I can see this sort of information expansion happen now too. New ideas are formed from old ideas and thus they seem to be remembered rather than created. When someone figures out an idea based on old ones they post it on their blog. Other people who read their blog walk away with those ideas and use them to create new ones. I saw this happen recently and the originator of one of the ideas got bent out of shape because he saw his ideas spreading and didnt like the way it was happening. If we are aware enough then we can understand it will spread how it is supposed to. Just as we are only remembering we arent really having any ideas stolen.

I find this image quite interesting as it seems to portray the creator god Ashton Kutcher as an angel with his butterfly yet white angelic wings of spirals.. Possibly being the water drop for the resonating film the NINES with Ryan Rehnolds. Another creator god and possible ArchAngel, a chief or principal angel; in medieval angelology one of the NINE orders of celestial attendants on God. Ashton uncovers his powers of changing his own reality when reading journal entries from his childhood. The effect is inaccurate to the butterfly effect and this seems to suggest power over ones own future.

I realize as I am writing this that these spirals are the same spirals I personally witnessed on my LSD trip to becoming god for those few moments. I saw spirals of this fashion as far as the eye could see. And this is how i think the whole fabric of reality works including the largely complex patterns of the everyday events and moments of our lives. i never realized the swirls i saw, the endless spirals of woven light strings during my trip was the butterfly effect

And to conclude the idea. I think we are actually becoming quite aware the effects we have when we flap our wings. We are connected completely to the fabric and thus every word we utter and every noise we make causes unfathomable amount of occurrences. But when we hone our intent and understand what we cause by flapping our wings then we can make better decisions of what we share. This opens the gateway to full oneness consciousness and being conscious of the infinite moment.

Shia, the first and the last.

2008-09-29T19:15:00.000-07:00

Shi'a ("follower" or "partisan) as an Islamic term traces its etymology to the very first century of Islam.

Shia LaBeouf is quickly becoming quite the film start in 2008, the year of bliss according to the late Ian Lungold. 2012 is right around the corner and will be the dawn of the new age, the new world as stated by the mayans. The last beginning started with the story of adam and eve. Adam (Hebrew; dust; man; mankind) and Eve (Hebrew; living one) were, according to the religious books the Torah, the Bible and the Qur'an, the first man and woman created by God. The name Shia is Hebrew for "gift from God"

Shia stared alongside "The One" Keanu Reeves in the movie Constantine as his devoted driver and apprentice. Resonating his son as he follows his "paternal" leader into the depths of the demons. Carrie-Anne Moss completes the "Trinity" as the mother of Kale (Shia) in the film Disturbia. The trinity as we know is the Christian term for the father, the son, and the holy spirit. Father and son taken care of the holy spirit is the spirit of love, and there is no love like a mothers love. "The woman" is given the name Eve in the closing verses of Genesis 3, "because she was the mother of all living.

Adam and Eve actually had 3 children, Cain, Abel and Seth. Cain kills Abel and Seth is given by God to replace Abel. Shias character in disturbia is named Kale, and what seems to be a mix of Cane and Abel. The new state of our society is to intertwine the names of celebrity so I dont think its a far stretch to assume the mix. Cain does kill Abel and we are given Seth in replace. With what seems to be an unlimited supply of characters to choose from I feel the synchronistic thing to do is to choose the closest relative death of Shias characters.

Cain and Abel were the first and second sons of Adam and Eve, born after the Fall of Man (911 Towers, The Tower of Babel is a structure featured in chapter 11 of the Book of Genesis, an enormous tower intended as the crowning achievement of the city of Babylon. According to the biblical account, Babel was a city that united humanity, all speaking a single language and migrating from the east *this was the world trade center or center of trade for the world*). In the film Constantine Chas Kramer (Shia) is killed as he tried to defeat the demons and as his resonating character 'Abel' his death is his sacrifice that god was pleased with and awared him by making him and angel which appears after the credits of Constantine.

Cain was cast out of the garden and told not to come back because he killed abel. God put a mark apon him so that all men would recognize him so that all men would know that he had displeased god. Shia has lost his abel and is resonating the Cain within himself. The mark is obvious when Shia LaBeouf Confessed to a Drinking Problem. He was also involved in a car accident in which Shia nearly lost a finger. As I see it Shia is also the third son of adam and eve, Seth. Cain is still cast down, and Shia searches to find his revenge. He is set to star in Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen. A name that seems to fit exactly into place for the transformation of Cain into Seth.

My details might be a little off but I find there coorelations quite interesting to say the least. We are dawning a new age in 2012 and we might see some amazing things come to pass very soon in reality, and in the timeless characters portrayed by these three resonating actors.

Shia also stars in Eagle Eye. The Eagle represents spiritual protection, carries prayers, and brings strength, courage, wisdom, illumination of spirit, healing, creation, and a knowledge of magic. and the Eye represents the third eye and the all seeing eye. We will awaken our third eyes and realize our true potentials in the years to come.

Keanu Reeves is set to star in the film The Day the Earth Stood Still as an alien man sent to protect the interests of the universe itself.

An interesting but not new destiny for Keanu.

Not surprizing the character who stars next to Shia in Disturbia also played the mysterious God, Creator, Alien character from the movie Contact. If Shia plays cain in disturbia, trying to reclaim gods acceptance and god directly fights him in this movie then god is telling him how unpleased he is with his actions.

In the movie Contact he greets Jodie Foster as the Time-Space (as opposed to space-time) traveler Eleanor Arroway. She uses the Pineal Gland machine to traverse the galaxy as her Time-Space self. in the movie she never leaves yet her recorders leaves with her. In Space-Time she never did leave. Time stopped in the center for her because for that moment she experienced her opposite self. We have this same ability in our body tho it is less precise sometimes than the machine portrayal. David Wilcock goes into the real ideas of a real machine with these capabilities that are no longer used.

The ideas behind this post are about resonance and synchronicity. We are getting so close to 2012 and what happens at 2012 even the people who used that time traveling machine could not forsee. They could see time up until then, at that point then only saw white. They stopped using them now because the images they saw were starting to become interlaced with more than one image. This suggests that more images will gradually become more interlaced eventually creating one image of pure white light. We will soon be one, we will find our oneness.

The Grand Illusion

2008-09-24T22:02:00.000-07:00

Amanita Muscaria

2008-09-24T20:55:00.000-07:00

There is a DVD called the Pharmacractic Inquisition. Though Im sure this is not the first place this originated it is the first place I heard of it. It goes on to explain where the ideas of Santa Clause, Christmas, Easter, came from. And many more.

The shaman santa would go in search of the mushroom Amanita Muscaria. He would bring with him a large sack to carry what he gathered in. Be he couldnt carry the mushrooms all wet so he would hang them on trees. He would take the mushrooms into town in his sack and trade them for things. Trading the experiences they brought.

This is why the hat and his suit is red and white. This is what the pope wears too, red and white. Hes a giant freakin mushroom.
A single source for the notion that Nordic Vikings used A. muscaria to produce their berserker rages was first suggested by the Swedish professor Samuel Ödman in 1784. Ödman based his theories on reports about the use of fly agaric among Siberian shamans. The notion has become widespread since the 19th century, but no contemporary sources mention this use or anything similar in their description of berserkers. On the whole, muscimol, the psychoactive ingredient, is a mild relaxant, but it is widely known, as with all drugs that it can create a range of reactions within a range of people [87] and it is possible that it could make a person incredibly angry, as well as make them "very jolly or sad, [jump] about, [dance], [sing] or [give] way to great fright".

Then come in the knights of the round table and the holy grail cup. Well the mushroom bends upward and the water settles inside the top and gets very saturated with the chemicals.

Even now adays during easter we have no clue why we do it. What was the connection? The kids would be told by santa or whomever to go search for the easter eggs. Little kids could fit under the trees and were very quick and agile. While as the tall adults would give them something in return, money, food, whatever.

The mushroom can be found under specific trees and obviously resemble the easter egg. The trick was to find them which we have turned into a tradition and game for the kids.

I wanted to add the connection to the mario brothers games. I tried to trace the origin back as far as i could but my research only yeilded a video from a guy claiming to be the originator. Mario, luigi and the princess were all friends of his *he actually looks like mario too*. Mario was a young demolitions expert, princess was his first wife, and luigi was a cheif of police or something. So im not sure what else can be said about the origins. Kinda bland. The story of mario is interesting though.

Mario makes use of many items, which give him various powers. The most prominent of these is the "Super Mushroom", which allows Mario to grow to twice his size, becoming the eponymous "Super Mario", and can sustain damage before shrinking back down to "regular" Mario. Additionally, collecting a "Fire Flower" transforms Mario into "Fire Mario" and allows him to throw fireballs at enemies, and a "Starman" renders Mario temporarily impervious to harm.

I also remember the character Toad or Toadstool from mario. Toad is the general collective name of the "Mushroom People" found in the Mushroom Kingdom, who are a sapient, anthropomorphic mushroom race, with a peaceful, human-following monarchistic culture. The word 'toadstool' refers to poisonous or inedible mushrooms. The Amanita muscaria toadstool, instantly recognizable for its brilliant scarlet cap with white warts. This use has arisen due to the psychotropic and hallucinogenic compounds contained within the toadstool. Ingestion leads to 'expanded perception', macropsia (perceiving objects as enlarged)3, rapid heartbeat, dry mouth, and the belief that one could talk directly with one's Dog. It is no accident that fly agaric toadstools often appear in books of fairy tales.

The mushroom seems to be carrying on in our culture which seems fit considering it played such a huge part in our own development. In summary, it seems quite possible that the traditional image of Father Christmas, described in Livingston's poem and universalised by the Coca Cola Company during the 1930s, has its real origins in shamanistic rituals involving the red and white fly agaric toadstool. From climbing into chimneys and gift giving, to dressing in red and white and flying through the air with reindeers, travellers and storytellers have fused these ancient customs with other pagan traditions and imagery. As is the wont of Christianity, these pagan customs have pragmatically been adapted and integrated into our Christmas traditions.

Gnostic Media is proud to present this "YouTube Edition" of The Pharmacratic Inquisition DVD by Jan Irvin & Andrew Rutajit. The full length DVD has been split into twelve 10-minute sections making it easy to watch and share.

I just find this video series quite amazing. I think its the 5th or 6th video they get into explaining the mushroom as being the holy grail and all. really fascinating and well, it makes me rethinking this 2012 stuff as not being anything more than energy shifting. our energies will change and we will focus on something very different than what is normal now.

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=99DA173ACE47A12E

We are a living hologram

2008-09-22T12:18:00.001-07:00

Lately the syncronicities in my life are pointing me to the idea that we are a living hologram. Or at least we are in one. I was told by a syncromystic to check out the movies "the 13th floor" and "the nines". They are both very interesting movies and remind me a lot of the matrix. The subject matter for the 13th floor and the matrix is quite close.

In the 13th floor computer scientists develop a computer system that works just like our reality. It generates a universe with all the same properties as ours, everything inside of it is electrons building on electrons to create reality. In this system humans emerge, then civilization. The time they create inside is somewhere in the 1930's, where outside it is the 90's. The characters figure out how to let their consciousness go into the machine and go inside bodies that are basically them. They look like themselves, talk like themselves but are really different people with different names and personalities. One of the bots inside this machine finds out its not real and drives out to where it can see the edge of its reality. The man who made the machine realized that the same applies to his reality. The main character learns of this too and drives to the edge of his reality. He is then taken out of his reality and into the one above it which is based around the year 2024.

I found it quite interesting because after he gets out him and his wife think they are finally out and finally in the real reality. Not a machine. I cant tell if the creators of this movie didnt think of it or if they did but just didnt hint to it (that i noticed). That they werent ever going to reach a real reality. They are in an infinite universe of electrons.

This same sort of thing happens in the matrix trilogy. The characters wake up and find that they were in a "fake" computer generated world. When they come out of it they think they are in the real world. I think the wechowski brothers were trying to hint they were not out completely. They did this by having neo try to effect the next level of the matrix and stop a squid machine. He did. He actually used his "the one" powers outside of the matrix. This hurt him and he ended up in the train station inside the matrix again. Even tho he was not linked in directly. This to me suggests they were always inside an infinite matrix and thinking they are free was simply a control.

I dont think they could ever get out of the matrix. Same as us. We are very very close to creating computers that will have realities within them. This may already exist in some underground bunker or in some massive server room somewhere but nothing public yet. The closest we have gotten is videos games. You play the character and run around and do fun things. The character inside the game has no clue its being controlled. The fact is you and the character are now one. You are the character in the game, the difference between this and life is that you know it. You know you can die, fall of cliffs, murder thousands of people. You know it and you know you can start over in a heartbeat and you feel no remorse. Typically the only thing you feel is the burnt ego, you couldnt shoot enough people or your aim wasnt better than the other guys.

The matrix was made of code. A pattern of symbols based in electrons that created a virtual reality so that the beings inside would feel as if they are normal. Our reality is made of code too, made of patterns of light and electrons that form atoms and planets and people and everything. So i think for sure that we are in one. We are growing closer to understanding it too. Holograms are starting to show up as real things, not just star wars fabrications. Prince Charles gave a speach a while ago as a hologram because he did not want to travel and cause all the pollution. The company says they will be able to have hollograms become a normal part of our society very soon.

We have seen holograms in many movies and even now reality. But what if we actually are one and we dont know it? I was imagining the idea that instead of running the video game we are the video game. I saw that i could die and start over no different than i am now. I think alan watts made the most sense out of it when he said, originally painters were used to paint portraits. One painter made a portrait of a princess that was sent to a king, the painter painted in the princess's favor and the king killed her (this could be wrong). After that painters painted realistically. They honed their skills. Then came the photograph, but it was still not good enough so they made better ones and eventually in color. But it was still not good enough, a bad representation. They had to move. So they created the Movie. An illusion of a series of images created a motion. But even this was not good enough, they added audio. Then they added color. And now we find that the images are not clear enough so they are becoming more clear. We can send live feeds now too. Then comes the hologram. The person can stand right in front of you. But even this is not good enough, they will soon make the air solid so you can touch it. Then they will make it so you can interact with it. Then we will start to possibly forget this reality or remember who and what we are.

I imagine that we are playing a giant game and we have been playing so long that we forgot that we were playing. This is the idea that was presented in the movie "The Nines" with Ryan Reynolds. Ryan Reynold plays a creator god.

"The Nines" consists of three linked stories that exist in distinct but overlapping parallel universes, each challenging the other's claim to reality. The same actors -- Ryan Reynolds, Hope Davis and Melissa McCarthy -- play different characters in each, although their roles serve similar functions. Reynolds is an actor in the first story, a screenwriter in the second and a TV character who is a famous video game designer in the third. Through each of these characters, questions of identity and existence, creation and control, reality and fantasy are attacked from almost every conceivable angle, spinning a grabby mystery.

This is a hard movie to swallow because the concept of knowing your god is far beyond most peoples comprehension. I suspect that we all just wanna see with our eyes, but the Mayan prophecy says that we should prepare to see with our minds. Consciousness is growing to remember something it has forgotten. To see what is to come we must look hard at what is happening around us. The synchronicities speak to us more clearly sometimes than words. I am not sure what happens when we feel one, I have felt this and its unpleasant. I remembered that I just wanted to come back and feel normal again. Feeling separate can feel better than feeling one if you are not ready to accept yourself completely. I think we are getting closer to doing just that.

Prince Charles Hologram

Sureal Dream

2008-08-19T09:46:00.000-07:00

I had a very sureal yet vivid dream last night. I remembered what I saw so well that I decided to try and depict it. My depiction is very very basic compared to what i saw. I believe I was at the edge of something, i felt like i was at the edge of a river or baseball stands on a dark night. I saw the sky and saw bright lights in the sky. The lights were just a sliver of the moon and I could barelly make it out. The sky changed shape and I saw a dark star appear. I pointed to the sky to get everyone to look at it and I said "Its a solar system". I saw a brown cloud of matter appear and then disapate. The dark star soon turned into a bright orb and started changing into various forms of matter in the same ball shape. It was very interesting, it came up to us and because it was a bright ball of light we thought it might burn us or hurt us. Many of the people pushed it away as did I. Then something inside my told me it was okay. I put my hand up to touch it and as i went to put my hand on it i remember thinking that this could hurt or not. I felt I was throwing caution into the wind. I placed my hand on it and it didnt hurt. It felt good. The object then turned into a grey ball and looked a lot like the moon. It started to grow around my hand and encompass it. The grey ball then changed shape into a face and smiled at us all. the people with me started clapping for it and it grew slightly and started to clap. Its arms were still small and clay, looking more like a seal clapping.

This dream seems to be consisting of part of the movie abyss which i watched yesterday and the day before i was at a beach and saw the sliver of moon and couldnt tell what it was for a while. Its funny how our minds combine things like this to generate the experiences for ourselves. I saw the sliver turn into something magical which did not happen for me in real life although i wanted it to. I got to meet an unknown entity just as mysterious and kind as the one from abyss.

here are the quick sketches i drew to try and depict it.

We are all the same person

2008-08-13T11:00:00.000-07:00

Ive thought about this idea for a long time but have always found it hard to describe to people. We view ourselves as separate and that goes for our souls too. We think that because our bodies are separate that our souls must be as well. Ive often thought that this might be wrong, or at least different from what we perceive. We feel separate from everything else but we are one and the same. We derive our consciousness from the same place. So if this is true then really the feeling you have of the being inside you is the same inside me and the next guy. We are all exactly the same being only in separate bodies with separate life stories. We go our whole lives becoming so different from one another we have started failing to see the likenesses.

The feeling of love is the feeling that brings us closer to ourselves. When we sit in nature and view it with love we start to realize through feeling that we are a part of nature and nature is a part of us. Fear is the feeling of separateness. It breeds depression, violence and survival instincts. The need to try very hard to survive because you forget who you are. We give ourselves the gift of forgetting who we are because its the yin to the yang. We need the glass to be half empty and half full. This is the core idea behind why Buddhists say to love the good people and the bad. The ones who live in sadness have forgotten the way of the light.

Dont watch tv

2008-08-11T16:00:00.000-07:00

check out these 3 videos of this great presentation about a very short "interview" on cnn. this is exactly why i cant stand that channel.

part1

part2
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYZu2Fudp4U&feature=related
part3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RzQOqnXQb9o&feature=related

I also think network is a very good example of when people started seeing it go wrong in the beginning.

Chakra Energy Centers

2008-08-08T12:08:00.000-07:00

I found a few pretty spectacular videos on the chakras. Some pretty great graphics and its very inspirational. Nothing great and special today, just wanted to share these videos. I am constantly thinking of reality now and the various ways to look at it. Enjoy!

3parts

NWO, Alex Jones Fear monguring

2008-08-05T09:35:00.000-07:00

Alex Jones is a well known radio host. He speaks out against the controlling factors of our governments and expresses loudly that we should be opposed to them. He spreads knowledge and fear of the New World Order (NWO). But is this a good thing? We live in a time where we are being manipulated every single day of our lives. Media, advertising, scientific and religious opinion, fashion and self image. We are manipulated into our deepest instincts, food, fear, sex. And this is obvious with what we are bombarded with. Non stop advertising about fast foods, advertisers using sex to sell, then news and other programs showing us what to be afraid of each day. And all this blinds the public. They concentrate on these things rather than looking at what matters.

Alex Jones and his followers consider what they are doing as a revolution, I think its hurting rather than helping. We have always had a controlling factor atop of us, so whats so different now? We are blinded from the truth. TV and media programming is brainwashing us to consume more and more, to fight amongst ourselves, psychedelic drugs are illegal because they make us look at ourselves and see what we are doing to our earth and friends, they also let us see how we are being controlled. We are blind and willfully becoming more blind.

The new world order and alex jones both want to spread fear, whether they know it or not. Fear is a joke, people lock themselves up in their houses and become stressed over everything in life. They become paranoid and worry about everything. This is fear. And its useless. Spreading it will not free us, it will enslave us as it always has. If you dont understand that then you arent really trying. When we embrace fear we embrace worry and doubt. Finding happiness is finding the good moments.

So should we rise up and take out our government, or should we relax and let live the good life while it lasts. I think its the same as retirement. People work their whole lives in misery just to have the last few years of their life in supposed happiness. But happiness to them is doing no work. This is just confusing. The only way to enjoy life is by not working? Then why are you working so hard just to have that? I say have it each day. Dont worry about retirement and relaxing one day. Do it now. Do it your whole life and enjoy it. Enjoy every moment, good or bad. Because there will be good and bad. We cannot avoid it, avoiding it only makes it seem worse. If we master this then life can start to seem good. We no longer focus on the bad, its a fly on the wall. An inconvenient occurrence.

Judge Not Lest Ye Be Judged

2008-08-01T15:01:00.000-07:00

Matt. 7:1 "Do not judge, or you too will be judged."

For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, if we judge with an evil heart or dark intent, His judgment of us will reflect it; if we judge nobly and honestly, His judgment of us will reflect that, too. American culture seems to have turned into a fantastic state of judgment. Our self consciousness reflects this more than anything. The intent on which we judge the world and the beings within it will reflect itself. When we look at a person who has blemished skin and tacky dress, and we say 'look at her, she is ugly and has no taste', we have judged her based on our own ideals. This is the reflection, this shows us that our ideals and hers are different but we view ours as superior. If we are to accept ourselves for our differences then we must accept others for theirs.

Keep this idea in mind for a day or so. Go about your day and have normal conversations and see how and when this shows up. Judgement is constant, it can be positive or negative.

Aliens live in our right brains

2008-07-31T13:36:00.000-07:00

Its not often i do two posts in one day but an idea hit me that I really wanted to put down quickly. This idea that the left brain and right brain sees two separate dimensions of reality hit me again but in a new way. I will reiterate my previous idea.

Our left brains control function and logic. They ground us in this "physical" reality. They interpret the chemical signals our sensory organs send and this is interpreted as reality. Our right brain however is the creative center. It is in the moment and free from boundaries. Letting our left brain take a break and letting our right brain take over lets us live more freely. I think that the right brain sees reality in different way than the left brain. The left brain sees the reality that is limited by time and space. Where manifesting anything, like food for instance, takes a long time. You have to get up and goto the store or fridge and then you have manifested food. If you are a farmer then you must wait months till the food manifests itself in the ground. The right brain is different. You can think of anything and manifest it instantly. So i think it sees a dimension of reality that is not governed by time and space. We visit this place in our imagination, our dreams, and while using psychedelic drugs.

After that being said this idea is around the right brain dimension. Aliens and ghosts seem to only contact people who are in an altered state. Psychedelics being the forefront of all altered states, Shamans for thousands of years have used them to contact "spirits". Images of aliens appear in paintings throughout history. My previous post was about mushrooms being the probe to contact them and them to contact us.

This idea was told to me by a friend but it suggests that aliens and ghosts might live in the dimension of our right brains. We constantly look for them with cameras and different equipment. A rare glimpse in the sky might show you an unidentified flying craft. You see the craft and you say, hey, aliens are on that craft. you have no idea whats on there but you say aliens are. have a single DMT trip and you will discover elves and aliens communicating with you and you with them. Its in such a form that you cant conceptualize it in your normal head space. But when induced into an altered state, you can find them easily. "You can meet the alien, over and over again, depending on how good your connections are ;) "

I hope you can stand my random lines of thinking :D

The Probe Molecules

2008-07-31T11:42:00.000-07:00

Today I was introduced to a podcast of the late Terence Mckenna giving a small speech at a UFO conference. He made some amazing correlations with psychedelics and alien life forms. He goes on to say that mushrooms are the direct vessel for understanding reality and that they were given to our planet as probes from a 'far out' alien species. A species with an intelligence unimaginable and technology unfathomable. Describing them as a species is even too dense of a concept because these life forms might understand reality so fluently that they might exist only as energy.

This idea of the probe at a molecular level really intrigues me. Terence had also mentioned that if you wanted to speak to a lower end species like us you would have to figure out a way to do it that is subtle. Crop circles are a terrible medium for such contact. Whats amazing about psychedelic compounds is that they have a certain voice to them. I know myself on salvia and lsd i have heard such voices. They have spoken to me. But as I have stated before in a previous entry they do not use words but rather the feeling of what they are saying comes through. Whether you are Mayan, American, German, or Scandinavian, the message still comes through loud and clear. The molecule speaks to you in your native tongue.

We send probes out into deep space and they send back information that we can understand of the world in which we have sent them. A world we cannot experience because it is impossible to traverse to. Terence suggests these probes are like a calling card of sorts. They use the phone home method of sending the information back. Most people experience other beings when they try DMT, lsd, salvia and mushrooms and these beings are alien to us because of where they exist. When we try these drugs we are given insight and information but we also give it out. It has full access to our inner most being at the molecular level.

All of these drugs can provide very grand and amazing experiences and give enormous insight into our very own reality. "Psychedelics do not cause addictions. They do not ruin lives or made people feel like robbing banks. Nothing has ever been put against them except that give you funny ideas. They have not made UFO's illegal but they sure have make psychedelics illegal. This is because this is the portal to a deep fundamental communication. Meeting aliens will not happen on the white house lawn and we wont see it on time magazine. They will happen in an altered state of mind. Most cases of sightings and visitations take place in an altered state of mind. UFO's are not for our amusement, they are for our transformation. We can play the game and wait for them to show up on CNN or we can go to the end of the movie. "

Our Golden Age

2008-07-30T11:05:00.000-07:00

The term Golden age stems from Greek mythology and legend. It refers to the highest age in the Greek spectrum of Iron, Bronze, Silver and Golden ages, or to a time in the beginnings of Humanity which was perceived as an ideal state, or utopia, when mankind was pure and immortal. A "Golden Age" is known as a period of peace, harmony, stability and prosperity. In literary works, the Golden Age usually ends with a devastating event, which brings about the Fall of Man. It also begins with chaos and devastation. If you want to learn what is going to happen then you must look at history.

According to Giorgio de Santillana, the former professor of history at MIT, there are over 200 myth and folkstories from over 30 ancient cultures that spoke of a cycle of the ages tied to the movement of the heavens. Some Utopianist beliefs, both political and religious, hold that the Golden Age will return after a period of blessedness and gradual decadence is completed. Other proponents, including many modern day Hindus, believe a Golden age will gradually return as a natural consequence of the changing yugas.

As we fly through space we do circles around our sun. the traditional way of looking at the solar system was shown that way because it was easier to understand. but this is how it actually happens. you can see how there is a wave effect, the same as sound or water would create. and the waves are all in different places and in different times. So we are in a new place every moment. If you imagine yourself flying back through space and time and finding the point where you were then you can hone in on it a little easier it seems. This is how we re-live the energies on the planet. If we were in one places and never moved we would never see any changes.

So now it becomes a little more clear how we change with the energies and that this is exactly what the zodiacs explain. We are moving into the age of Aquarius and moving through the water door or stargate.

I think we are at the dawn of our golden age. The mayans said that we are leaving the 4th world and entering the fifth. I think this means the cycles we have seen in the previous turns of our planet, we will see agian. The mayans werent however mapping the movements of planets in space. They were mapping the evolution of consciousness. Their calendar shows that every cycle evolution speeds up x20.

I can tell the times are changing and it seems like they are changing for the very positive. They will not stay this way forever but could last anywhere from 20-2000 years or more. The energies that we experience seem to come directly from the core of the universe and the sun itself. The changes I am seeing are various and have to do with the human story and the human awareness/awakening.

The human life seems to be a simple story or complicated story, in any case it only wants to hear more and more stories. Our conversations are stories, movies, books, games, these are all ways of expressing and being a part of a story. I think our golden age will have this at its core. We are seeing super heroes come alive like never before. Previous super hero shows and movies were good but todays movies are so realistic and powerful that they cannot be overlooked as just another movie. I think we have come to a place where our technology and skill for telling stories effectively is possibly the end or only the beginning of great story telling.

People seem to be waking up to reality a little more these days as well and this story telling might have something to do with it. I have heard hundreds of storys in my life and at my age I cant help but look at my life and see it is just another story and that I am the lead actor. I wake up everyday and pretend to be david shearer who lives in BC canada and works as an artist, i pretend this because its who i believe I am based on my story and everyone elses stories.

What does this mean to be in a golden age? Its hard to say just yet, I dont think we are meant to know so soon. The experiences that await us all are sure to be full of action, sadness, scaryness, and the funny. If your negative then you will see the negative, if your positive then you will see the positive. Maybe this just goes to show that we are the writers and directors of our stories, maybe its time to take that responsibility.

Duel Brain, Duel Reality

2008-07-29T09:20:00.000-07:00

Recently I bought and watched the full 5 hour dvd set of Nassim Haramein's Crossing the Event Horizon. (http://www.theresonanceproject.org/products.html) This interesting, to say the least, dvd was a brand new line of thinking for me. In his lecture he explains reality as sacred geometry and how all matter is simply mini blackholes and that we in fact live inside a black hole. Which is why it is so dark in space.

This is the way he shows this idea. In the center if you were looking down from the top of it you would see a black hole going through it. The ideas he suggests are 'out there' in some aspects but very thought provoking non the less.

This got me to thinking about how we perceive reality and the shapes of our brains. Our brains are also shaped in this torus shape.

Our left brain and right brain are tools for reality. our left brain is focused on the real sensory input devices, what is real and physical, it organizes our thoughts and only understands things through linear time (future and past). The left brain reality is said to be real by people because it helps us ground ourselves somewhere and is the basis for most peoples reality. but the left brain is just chemical reactions just like the right brain. Our right brain on the other hand lives in the moment. It is said to be our imagination station. and I say all experiences we feel are real, whether they come from the left or right brain.

A scientist would say that imagination is not real because it is a chemical interaction in the brain, but like i said the left brain is just a series of chemical interactions too. So if we get experience and feelings from both sides of our reality, through our brains, then whats to say which is real and which isnt? We cannot say one is or isnt, we can doubt that.

I think our two hemispheres are there to help us balance ourselves within reality. which is why we need to sleep. we can sleep too much or not enough which causes an unbalance and possible DIS-ease. so with that said i think our right brains are simply honing in on the other side of reality that we live in every day. the side that is not governed by time and space. In this side of our own reality, brain, we may manifest anything we can think of instantly. which is why when we think of negative things they might not manifest instantly in our normal lives but in our right brains they manifest instantly. and the experience are there instantly as well as the feeling and dis-ease. But we may also manifest positivity instantly also.

When we try to manifest things in this reality it takes longer because this reality is governed by time and space. I can manifest food but it might take me 20 minutes, 4 hours, a week, but i can do it. I am just limited by the physicality of this side of my reality.

I would also suggest that we as human are conduits for information. we are helping it grow along with us. so what we put into our bodies, food, ideas, or poison, we will get some equal coming out. If i eat a lot of bad food, the bad food works its way through my body and what comes out is not good stuff. But if I put in good food then what comes out is good and what it did to me while it was in me was good. This goes for information too. If we focus too much on negative things then we are manifesting them, not later or something but instantly, with our "imagination". If you put good positive loving information in, then it helps your body while its in you, and what you give out to others and the world is the same.

Its a choice that we make, but we are usually unaware of it when we make it. now that i have clarified it a little more, I am a little more aware and will watch what I input. This is me taking responsibility for that. :D

Sci-Fi is dead, welcome to reality

2008-07-28T16:05:00.000-07:00

Recently I was reading about the new Terminator Salvation movie with Christian Bale and it occured to me that this is no longer a work of fiction. We have made the possibility of killer robots a reality. I want to make a for correlations with reality and the terminator story.

First and foremost you cannot have a killer robot without a CPU. central processing unit: the key component of a computer system, which contains the circuitry necessary to interpret and execute program instructions. These program instructions would then be used to make the robot thinking and react but also to give it control over its body.

Here we can see the chip and its relative size. It is bulky and large. Unrealistic at the time but this was the dawn of the computer chip.

We are not so far off, in fact we might have surpassed the technology in many ways. We now have our own super chip that we use in every day things, most notibly the playstation3. This is the cell microprocessor.

IBM's latest supercomputer, IBM Roadrunner, is a hybrid of General Purpose CISC Opteron as well as Cell processors. It is reported that this combination is the first supercomputer to run at petaFLOPS speeds, having gained a sustained 1.0 petaFLOPS speed using the standard linpack benchmark. IBM Roadrunner uses the PowerXCell 8i version of the Cell processor, manufactured using 65 nm technology and enhanced SPUs that can handle double precision calculations in the 128-bit registers, reaching double precision 102 GFLOPs

petaFLOPS speeds are ridiculously fast and can calculate an enormous amount of data at extreme speeds. This is a commercial chip that is in the public sector. If its true that the military sector is really 20-30 years more advanced than the public, then its hard to imagine just what the technology could do.

The mind of the robot has many more developments, it is being researched by many many different people for interaction, navigation, and appearance. And with appearance comes the body. To have a terminator you must have a robot skeleton. These are being developed in great lengths as we speak. In the terminator movies it was described that the first terminators had plastic skin and were very easy to spot. Perhaps genetic manipulations for merging humans and machines will be the culprit in creating the next version of the robot.

Here is an image of the likeness so far. Keep in the mind the arnold terminator was a more advanced robot with real skin and living tissue.

Engineer Ray Kurzweil has predicted that by 2029 machines will indeed match humans, machines will in fact have achieved human level artificial intelligence. This means by at least 2029 we may see tiny robots implanted in people brains which in return will make them more intelligent.

There have been many many movies that have predicted the age of the the robot, irobot, the matrix, terminator. Should we fear this or should we see what happens? irobot seemed pretty pleasant until a specific model of robot came out. Fearing that robots will take over seems a little ridiculous at this point. Reality seems to be a little safer than the movies. I am however a little cautious when it comes to combining robot technology and humans. This has also been seen many times,
Bicentennial Man 1999, Johnny Mnemonic 1995, star treks borg, and star wars luke skywalker arm. All these ideas have a grain of truth and are all potentially beneficial and dangerous. I suppose humanity will always have to take a cautious step forward. Baby steps to the future!

UFO's and our opinions

2008-07-28T15:55:00.001-07:00

A friend of mine came across some footage of a gigantic ufo. This footage is amazing but I can help but be a little cross with a lot of the comments i see being posted. The footage is damn impressive and there are people who are sure its real and just as many who are sure its a fake. They are so sure that they simply say things like "nice computer graphics" or "This looks like war of the worlds test shots". I take the stand that none of these people actually know if it is real or not. You can base your argument on your experience, for instance I am an artist and I can say this footage is very very impressive. The amount of work it would take to composite this into real footage would be very hard to do. But the fact is I dont know if it is real or not. I could only know that if: A. I made it or was a witness to it being created, or B: I was a witness to the massive object flying overhead. So why is it that so many people presume to know the legitimacy of these sort of events? I think they are very absolute in nature and are not comfortable with the opposing ideas. So they say 100% its fake or real because they start out saying the opposite is not possible. I think this is a narrow minded view of the event and possibly transcends the every day events in their lives.

Heres the footage im speaking of.

My experience with Salvia

2008-07-25T15:14:00.001-07:00

Well my journey has given me quite a lot of information that frankly is just too damn hard to explain because its so much. I decided however to give a glipse of how Salvia Divinorm benefits my life. It restores the reality of the world we live in, without it reality goes unseen. We become blind to the philosophies of our existence and instead let the negativity, stress, and normalization of our day to day lives take hold.

Salvia gives you an altered state for only a few short minutes but it gives you great perceptions and it was the mazatec shamans beliefs that you actually interacted with spirits. It was their way of talking to the spirits. It is a good anti depressant as well and its the same reason. The best way I can describe it is it makes you feel like you are surrounded by loving beings. You cannot see them but you feel they are there.

I would say its like going to a building with a big party going on. You slip off into the closet and you still have the feeling that there are hundreds of people all around you in the various rooms. They all love you and are waiting for you to come back. This perceptual change gives you a greater sense of love which is what spiritual people believe in most. The spirits I have spoken to and that have spoken to me were loving and benevolent.

When I smoke it sometimes they are there and sometimes they are not. When I smoke it and they come, when they speak, they dont use words. Its as if someone has just said something to you and you have this feeling inside of you that they are speaking to you. It feels a lot like I would imagine telepathy feeling. No words are exchanged but rather the raw feelings are coming through. What they have told me is that when I smoke it I open a window so that i can see them. They tell me they are always around me and they all love me. But once again without words. They laugh at me and I laugh at them and they put on a show for me while im there. Its like a very vivid dream.

There is a distinct feeling of being pulled sideways or in all directions. The dreams I usually see have very bright colors and there is a lot of perceptual alterations. I get the sense im on top of a roof, or high like a helicopter or mountain. I see things multiply over and over again. I remember once I saw 50's style pinup girl posters one ater the other, they were moving back and forth like those duck hunting games.

When I leave them and the window closes, I am still sitting where i was and the feelings of love and joy stay with me. There are no negative after effects or addictive chemicals in it so sometimes I will go months without smoking any. After the effects wear off, those feelings that stick with me make me feel wonderful and happy. This benefits my life. I think its one of the greatest herbs you can smoke because of how there are zero negative effects for me and how many positive effects it has on my life.

Some people may say its bad that people use drugs like that but I think I am using a very good one for very good reasons. There is no shame in enhancing ones life however he or she feels they should. I for one see most other drugs and toxins as non beneficial but I am a hypocrite in that area because I drink once in a while and I know its no good. I try to stand up for salvia because I have such wonderful first hand experiences from it. I have only heard one story of a supposed incident with salvia.

A young man killed himself and his parents said it had to be because of the salvia divinorum the kid smoked a month earlier. The kid wrote about his experience and said how it made him feel. I did some more research into the story and found some things that the media didnt give out. They tried to portray it as salvia will cause this. He had a history of depression, he had a problem with alcohol, and had an acne problem. Salvia might have given him insight into reality but his reality was not a happy one to start with. LSD has the same effects for people. People take it for fun but dont realize it will make them see who they really are, then someone jumps off a roof and dies because they were irresponsible. In order to make sure this one doesnt goto that status i recommend having a sitter with you until your comfortable by yourself.

Super Heroes

2008-07-24T18:04:00.000-07:00

I sort of see super powers as coming back. Some of the super heroes of our past are jesus, buddha, muhamid, and many more. There are also super villians, hitler, Genghis khan, Nepolion. Many are based on fact but many are based on myth and story. I often think, will there be a day thousands of years from now when people think, did a man called superman ever really exist? Or a man that dressed as a bat and fought crime. Their stories are very believable, we look at them now and know who made them up but one day that information could be lost in history.

The new super heroes in movies are not no-named actors, they are actors that have been around for decades. We are literally witnessing them discover their powers within themselves. This is in an imaginated universe but its a universe that is real in our imagination. We tend to live in a physically minded society, where only physical objects and events are classified as "real". We classify our dreams and imagination as not real. I wonder if it is just as real as this universe.

To me these powers might be so normal to us we dont see them as powers. telepathy, powers of manifestation. What if the thoughts we are having are not all ours? would we know the difference or would we simply think, hey, thats a weird thought. What if our imagination is not a dream world but our soul living in the opposite of this universe, one where time and space do not limit you.

When we watch a movie, we get immersed into the story and the story becomes real. When we watch our friends get into a physical fight we get immersed into the story and it becomes real. If we are to define what is real then we need to look at reality once again. Reality just exists, no reason, it exists, always has and always will. We live in a fractal universe based on sacred geometry. What is the reason? i would assume there is none. We are energy that decides to exist the way we do and to experience the things we experience. Our senses tell us what is real and this causes the experience. So whether we are becoming emotionally charged because of our friends fighting or the super hero on screen, what is real is the experience we feel.

That being said I can imagine things that will make me feel scared, happy, loved, anything. This is a true power. I for one really really enjoy good super hero movies. We are at a time in our existence where we can make the stories seem more real than ever and they deserve praise. This is the golden age my friends.

Chaos Theory

2008-07-24T10:49:00.000-07:00

In mathematics, chaos theory describes the behavior of certain dynamical systems – that is, systems whose state evolves with time – that may exhibit dynamics that are highly sensitive to initial conditions (popularly referred to as the butterfly effect). As a result of this sensitivity, which manifests itself as an exponential growth of perturbations in the initial conditions, the behavior of chaotic systems appears to be random. This happens even though these systems are deterministic, meaning that their future dynamics are fully defined by their initial conditions, with no random elements involved. This behavior is known as deterministic chaos, or simply chaos.

Chaos theory seems to be a dominant part of our society these days. From the movie the butterfly effect to the new get smart movie and batman dark knight. In get smart our noah savior Steve Carell plays an agent of control. He fights off 9/11: The Twin Towers narrator Terence Stamp, the evil villian known as KAOS.

In the new batman, the dark knight, Joker describes to two-face how he is an agent of chaos. He has no plan of attack thus nothing matters. He is simply a tool to create mayhem for change. Control are all the systems put into place that have procedures and plans. He says that all these systems and planners have rules and do their best to make their plans work. New events and situations cause those planners to change and make different plans. This could be seen as a form of evolution. A forcing of change that is inevitable. Creatures born into a nature of chaos do their deeds only to do them.

The illuminati and secret societies want as much chaos in society as possibly. They send murderers back on the street and create mass fear in their countries people.

[credit to jordan maxwell] ANNUIT COEPTIS means OUR ENTERPRISE IS CROWNED WITH SUCCESS.
NOVUS ORDO SECLORUM means NEW ORDER OF THE WORLD, or NEW WORLD ORDER. This is a secret symbol of the Bavarian Illuminati. Their cryptic symbol is all over our money and governmental structures. So is it any surprise that their motto is order out of disorder. Order out of chaos.

This is the double square symbol of freemasonry. The first square means order and lagitimacy. "you play fair and square" "3 square meals because its the right thing to do" When you put the second square in it means disorder. Its the intertwining of order and disorder. Which means you have the power of order and disorder. The same people control them. This is the parlament building in london. Notice the floor.

I believe all masonry symbology is based on sacred geometry as nassim harrmein describes it. I noticed that these points were on the mayan calendar too and am trying to figure out what they mean on there. I cant tell. What are the dates where the points are and why is this so significant.

The Human Replication

2008-06-24T16:13:00.000-07:00

Humans are simply replicators. we are even creating new replicators, information replication. Susan Blackmore goes in depth into the subject of memes and temes in this very very interesting presentation.

Susan Blackmore studies memes: ideas that replicate themselves from brain to brain like a virus. She makes a bold new argument: Humanity has spawned a new kind of meme, the teme, which spreads itself via technology -- and invents ways to keep itself alive

I am sure there are some very good ideas as to what this really means for us if we are in fact replicators. Ian lungold described the mayan calendar as pointing to this date because it is the convergence with the galactic center. But he also went in and showed how all the levels within the calendar actually describe all the evolutionary steps we have taken since the beginning of the "big bang". He say something to the effect of: The mayan calendar shows us evolution till the end date, past that date creation surpasses evolution.

On the newest Red Ice interview David Flynn suggests that the if taken literally the bible says that the angels and that realm will trade places, in a sense, with this lower energy realm. David Wilcock suggests there is an opposite universe to ours. The positive to our negative, yin to our yang, a figure eight if you will. In that universe the opposite laws take place. Here we must abide by time and space. There, there time and space are not factors. Whatever your consciousness asks for or wherever it wants to go it goes there in an instant.

So I am thinking that maybe the energy gradually changes till a sudden shift to the exact opposite form. We would still be in this universe but it would change dramatically. I threw together this graphic from stuff i found and the top bit i made. I am really hoping this is the case and not utter devistation. I would like to believe that heaven awaits us all and all our world religions have been trying to comfort us in this realm while it lasts.

Gateways of light

2008-06-23T14:42:00.000-07:00

I found this very inspiring video. this transformation we might be experiencing may literally come from the higher energies felt within us. the love and joy we feel to the highest degree possible might be what changes our reality and planet.

If we live in a vibrational Universe...and are ourselves light energy vibrating at one frequency or another....and our feelings vibrate at one level or another.... it would line up in that higher vibration feelings would produce a higher vibration physical reality - Glenn Brubaker www.themanifest-station.com

Science is the new world religion

2008-06-23T14:10:00.001-07:00

If you follow anything regarding the NWO (New world order) ideas then you know their intent to create and start a new world religion. We hear these ideas and think there is no way they will or can do that. I propose they already have. The ideas we have gotten are old news, not new. So sure we look at it now and say no way its possible but look around. All religions accept science. Atheists accept science. Its a globally accepted belief system.

Here is a 3 part series of Dr. Paul Laviolette. The first part he goes into different technologies and UFO propulsion. The 2nd he talks about science as a new religion. And in the third he shows how that religion is being manipulated.

Part1

Part 2 - http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=ZolhwdRtumE
Part 3 - http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=8wGXWpqQOuw

When you hear science as a religion you might not think its a bad idea. The problem is that you still have to put all your faith on what people are telling you to be true.

The definition of religion sounds a lot like what science is.

a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, esp. when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.

a specific fundamental set of beliefs and practices generally agreed upon by a number of persons or sects

Our Amazing Brains

2008-06-23T13:14:00.000-07:00

Today I was browsing youtube and came across a few ted.com speaker sessions. One stood out to me more than any. A Neuroanatomist, Jill Bolte Taylor, had an opportunity few brain scientists would wish for. One morning she realized she was having a massive stroke. As it happened she felt her brain functions slip away one by one, speech, movement, understanding -- she studied and remembered every moment. This is a powerful story about how our brains define us and connect us to the world and to one another.

This awesome presentation is captivating and inspiring.

The second video i want to share is a video of Ken Robinson speaking about how Schools kill creativity.

"All children are born artists. The problem is to remain artists as we grow up" - Picasso

Kids will take a chance, If they dont know they will have a go. They arent frightened of being wrong. If your not prepared to be wrong you wont come up with anything original. By the time they are adults most kids have lost that capacity. They are afraid of being wrong. We now run educational systems where mistakes are the worst thing you can make. The result is we are educating people out of their creative capacities. We dont grow into creativity we grow out of it.

The MicroChip Adjenda

2008-06-20T17:23:00.000-07:00

Is there a reason there is a plan to microchip humanity? We are sheaple. These chips are what most suspect to be 'the mark of the beast' as stated in the holy bible.

The mission impossible 3 idea of time released explosives. could these small devices one day contain a small amount of toxin that when released would kill everyone who had it implanted?

What will happen to you if you get the mark of the beast? What if you refuse the mark of the beast?

Revelation 13 contains a Bible prophecy that will be fulfilled very soon. It will affect you and every other person on earth. Satan does not want you to know what the mark of the beast is. Take a few minutes to learn about this important Bible prophecy.
Don’t get the mark of the beast

If you worship the beast and receive the mark of the beast you will receive the complete wrath of God. The book of Revelation in the Bible gives us this strong warning:

“If anyone worships the beast and his image and receives his mark on the forehead or on the hand, he, too, will drink of the wine of God's fury, which has been poured full strength into the cup of his wrath.” Revelation 14:9,10

If you get the mark of the beast God’s complete wrath will be poured out on you.
Mark of the beast required

“He causes all, both small and great, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hand or on their foreheads, and that no one may buy or sell except one who has the mark or the name of the beast, or the number of his name.” Revelation 13:16-17

When you are required by law to get the mark of the beast and when you can’t buy or sell without it how will you live?

This is exactly what is coming. A plan has been revealed and subjects all around the USA are voluntearing to be the first subjects. They are already testing these in passports. If you have been issued a new passport from the USA then you are already bugged.

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Mythbusters working for the beast. "Cool,...i feel so sci-fi":

"Never doubt that a small, group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has".

- Margaret Mead

Secret Bilderberg Agenda To Microchip Americans Leaked

Sources from inside the 2008 Bilderberg meeting have leaked the details of what elitists were discussing in Chantilly Virginia last week and the talking points were ominous - a plan to microchip Americans under the pretext of fighting terrorist groups which will be identified as blonde haired, blue eyed westerners.

Veteran Bilderberg sleuth Jim Tucker relies on sources who regularly attend Bilderberg as aides and assistants but who are not Bilderberg members themselves. The information they provided this year is bone-chilling for those who have tracked the development of the plan to make the general public consider implanted microchips as a convenience as routine as credit cards.

"Under the heading of resisting terrorism there were points made about how the terrorist organizations are recruiting people who do not look like terrorists - blonde, blue eyed boys - they're searching hard for those types to become the new mad bombers," said Tucker.

http://www.prisonplanet.com/articles/june2008/061008_secret_agenda.htm

We dont have to stand up to prevent it. We dont have to fight. We just have to say no. I dont want that. Share with your neighbors and their neigh ours what the bible says about the subject. The only way to stop it from happening is to spread the word. Christians of all faiths should know that this is the mark of the beast. If we allow this to happen we are sealing our fate for good.

Here are some of the end time prophecies from the book of Revelation. These events will happen over a period of several years and will occur in quick succession.

* 4 major worldwide earthquakes
* 144,000 sealed by God
* 3 messages from God
* Greatest tribulation ever
* 4 trumpet judgments – physical calamities on earth
* Satan appears physically on earth claiming to be God
* Mark of the beast and 666
* God judges every person on earth
* 7 last plagues – complete wrath of God
* Jesus Christ comes the 2nd time and takes His people to heaven

Fluoride, The lunatic drug

2008-06-20T17:14:00.000-07:00

Ive looked into this a bit and its kinda scary. we have fluoride in our tooth paste so our teeth bones become stronger and fight off cavities. apparently softer teeth mean more cavities. if we get fluoride in the toothpaste already then why is it being added to a lot of our water supplies under the reason of helping tooth decay in children that drink pop and dont get enough of it.

there are a few problems with this idea. the children dont drink water anyway, they drink pop. the rest of us dont need extra cause its already in our tooth paste that we use. and we dont really get any benefit from fluoride if its going right past our teeth and into our body. When we consume it in our bodies it starts to harden all of our bones causing osteoporosis. Making the bones so hard that they become brittle.

http://www.nofluoride.com/Unicef_fluor.htm this link has a ton of info on some of the facts and dangers of Fluoride

Dental fluorosis occurs because of the excessive intake of fluoride either through fluoride in the water supply, naturally occurring or added to it; or through other sources. The damage in tooth development occurs between the ages of 6 months to 5 years, from the overexposure to fluoride. Teeth are generally composed of hydroxyapatite and carbonated hydroxyapatite; when fluoride is present, fluorapatite is created. Excessive fluoride can cause yellowing of teeth, white spots, and pitting or mottling of enamel. Fluorosis cannot occur once the tooth has erupted into the oral cavity.

http://www.rense.com/general3/fluo.htm another one that talks about Fluoride - The Lunatic Drug

The first occurrence of fluoridated drinking water on Earth was found in Germany`s Nazi prison camps. The Gestapo had little concern about fluoride`s supposed effect on children`s teeth; their alleged reason for mass-medicating water with sodium fluoride was to sterilize humans and force the people in their concentration camps into calm submission. (Ref. book: "The Crime and Punishment of I.G. Farben" by Joseph Borkin.)

Quoting Einstein`s nephew, Dr. E.H. Bronner (a chemist who had also been a prisoner of war during WWII) in a letter printed in The Catholic Mirror, Springfield, MA, January 1952:

"It appears that the citizens of Massachusetts are among the `next` on the agenda of the water poisoners.

"There is a sinister network of subversive agents, Godless `intellectual` parasites, working in our country today whose ramifications grow more extensive, more successful and more alarming each new year and whose true objective is to demoralize, paralyze and destroy our great Republic--from within if they can, according to their plan--for their own possession. "The tragic success they have already attained in their long siege to destroy the moral fiber of American life is now one of their most potent footholds towards their own ultimate victory over us.

"Fluoridation of our community water systems can well become their most subtle weapon for our sure physical and mental deterioration. ...

LETS PREVENT IT!!

Preventing fluoride poisoning

Fluoride poisoning can be prevented or minimized by using alternative water sources, by removing excessive fluoride from drinking water, and by improving the nutritional status of populations at risk.

Alternative water sources
These include surface water, rainwater, and low-fluoride groundwater.

Better nutrition
Clinical data indicate that adequate calcium intake is clearly associated with a reduced risk of dental fluorosis. Vitamin C may also safeguard against the risk. In consequence, measures to improve the nutritional status of an affected population - particularly children - appear to be an effective supplement to the technical solutions discussed above.

But one of the things i heard that scares me the most is that when fluoride was tested on rats, the rats were unable to reproduce after only five generations. global wipeout of humans?

Here are a few related videos

Professional Perspectives: Fluoride in Tap Water

Fluoride Deception Part 1

What Advanced Chronic Fluoride Poisoning Looks Like

Water, The holy grail, soul of life

2008-06-20T16:34:00.000-07:00

Through some intensive thinking and contemplating it struck me that water plays quite a significant role in not just our lives, but in all life. This idea is well known. Water is the birthplace of life on earth as we know it. The first multi cellular organisms were formed within it.

The main idea is that from water comes life. Without water there can be no life. It has been estimated that humans are anywhere from 60-90% water. All life as we know it requires it. If our bodies are truly our vessels for experiencing life then it made sense to me that the soul could easily be the water we need in order to live, or stay in our vessel.

In the movie "What the Bleep do we Know" images are shown of crystalized water. The images and research were conducted by Dr. Emoto, an author known for his controversial claim that if human speech or thoughts are directed at water droplets before they are frozen, images of the resulting water crystals will be beautiful or ugly depending upon whether the words or thoughts were positive or negative.

Photos of Tap Water Crystals

Photos of Spring Water Crystals

Distilled Water Crystals after Music

Encouraged by his findings, Emoto began studying the effects of prayer, blessings, and spoken words. Not surprisingly, his results indicated that water crystal formation was also sensitive to these things--yielding his current hypothesis;

“Molecules of water are affected by our thoughts, words, and feelings.”

This line of thinking lead me to the idea that water could be our soul. If we drink water and learn something does water retain those ideas? When we release water or use it up so it goes out into the world is that somehow contributing to the knowledge of the world? I did further research and speculation on the idea and remembered that jesus and water were very significant.

He walked on water, he baptised people with water, he turned water into wine. There is even a story where demons are inside of a man and Jesus is going to take them out. The demons ask him to put them into the swine (pigs) rather than cast them out. He does so and as soon as he did the pigs all ran into the ocean and drowned. Is there something there? Jordan Maxwell certainly thought so.

I will add more when i get more. :p

'The Holy Trinity' - Revelation

2008-06-15T23:27:00.000-07:00

As we go through the ages developing into the mass society we are today, there is an undertone of religion behind all of it. One such case that has struck a chord with me lately is the holy trinity. It all started to come together about a week ago and I think Ive finally started to make some sense of it.

The holy trinity as we know it today means

The Father - The Son - The holy spirit

I believe these corelate with the ancient Sumerian mythology and Jordan maxwells research pertaining to humans being genetically modified beings and formed from hominoids.

The Anunnaki are a group of Sumerian and Akkadian deities related to, and in some cases overlapping with, the Annuna (the 'Fifty Great Gods') and the Igigi (minor gods). These are the creator beings, the father. According to said mythology, the gods originally created humans as servants for themselves but freed them when they became too much to handle.

I have heard that there are beings that watch over us that have no bodies. Their entire existence is to monitor us. These beings are the holy spirit. The father is the god like creator that genetically formed us in his image. And the son is man kind as we know it on planet earth.

The holy spirit seems to be a very interesting subject but its also very apparent as to where we can see it. It is not the spirity within us, that is a spiritual concept that does not describe what is being worshiped.

In space they seem to look like space debree. But they are only picked up with UV cameras.

This video more than any seems to describe the holy spirit more than any other. If looked at from the perspective of sun worship, the object would seem to be a being in the sky, bright like the sun. It seems like part of the sun that has broken off, its son. It is well known that there is plenty of UFO spacecraft in christian art.

God the creator is shown with the holy spirits and with the sons below.

"The Madonna with Saint Giovannino", painted in the 15th century, artist unknown but to the Lippi school. The lower detail shows a section where a man and his dog can be seen looking up at a UFO type object.

A lot of these images start make one wonder about other cultures and this all seeing all knowing holy spirit. I believe this is the all seeing eye, the eye of Ra. If you look at pictures of UFOs, in most cases there is an outer shell and then a darker or lighter center. This is certainly an eye.

So is there any wonder why it is on the US dollar?

When looked at on the dollar bill it is very clear that the all seeing eye is within a triangle. The triangle being the holy trinity.

The eye of Ra is an ancient Egyptian symbol of protection and royal power from deities. A deity is a postulated preternatural or supernatural being, who is always of significant power, worshipped, thought holy, divine, or sacred, held in high regard, or respected by human beings.

The lines on the eye of Ra seem to depict movement and/or clouds.

This leads me to corelate it with the mythical bird the phoenix. The phoenix is a mythical firebird. The Bennu bird serves as the Egyptian correspondence to the phoenix, and is said to be the soul of the Sun-God Ra. A fire - bird. Symbolically this would seem to be a description of what was being seen as well as a title for worshiping. Fire suggests it is bright and glowing like the sun. Bird suggests it is in the sky, the power of flight. Is this mythical bird simply a description of the holy spirit.

I will add more to this

I am getting tired of TV...

2008-01-27T22:38:00.000-08:00

And I don't think I am the only one.

When you leave a tv on in the background it can get quite annoying when every few minutes it switches over to a commercial that you could care less about. But you are willing to hear it anyway because your show is about to come back on. The problem isn't that I am having to put up with annoying sounds. Its that those annoying sounds are actually words, carefully placed to manipulate my conscious and subconscious wants.

We're In a lot of trouble. The rich white man dies, and what will that do to the price of rice? More so, why is that woe to us? Because you people and 130 million other americans are watching the tv right now. Because less than 3% of you read books. Because less than 15% of you read newspapers. Because only 57% of Americans ever read a book. Because the only truth you know is what you get over the tube. Right now there is a whole generation that never knew anything that didnt come out of this tube.

This tube is the gossple, the ultimate revelation. This tube can make or break presidents, popes, prime ministers. This tube is the most awesome force in the whole world. And who knows what shit will be played off as truth.

Television is not the truth, television is a god damn amusement park. Television is a circus, a traveling carnaval, a troop of acrobats, story tellers, dancers, side show freaks, lion tamers, and football players.

They are in the boredom killing business. If you want the truth goto god, goto your gurus and profits. GOTO YOU SELVES! Because thats the only place your gonna find any real truth.

You will never get any truth from the tube. They will tell you anything you want to hear, they lie like hell. They will tell you that CSI always get the killers, and that no one ever gets cancer at Ray Barone house. And that no matter how much trouble the hero gets in just look at your watch, at the end of the hour he is going to win. They will tell you any shit you want to hear. They give you illusions but none of it is true!

We sit here day after day, night after night, all colors, creeds. They are all we know. We are beginning to believe the illusions they are spinning. That the tube is reality and that our own lives are unreal. We do whatever the tube tells us. We dress like the tube, we eat like the tube, we raise our children like the tube, we even think like the tube.

Its mass madness! WE ARE THE REAL THING, TV IS THE ILLUSION!

Turn them off and leave them off. Turn them off and never turn them on again!

You might start to realize that your life is a lot longer. Time goes a bit slower. Discover the love you had for nature or an old hobby. Enjoy the company of friends and family.

Produce creative videos on youtube.

Your reality does not have to be given to you through a TV. You can pick what reality you want.

Network, Mad as hell.

"I don't have to tell you that things are bad, everybody knows things are bad. Theres a depression. Every bodies out of work or scared of loosing their job. Banks are going bust, a dollar buys a nickels worth, shop keepers keep a gun under the counter. Punks are running wild in the street and there doesnt seem to be anyone that knows what to do and theres no end to it. We know that our air is unfit to breath and our food is unfit to eat. We sit in front of our tv and watch as a newscaster tells us that today we had 15 homicides, 63 violent crimes as if this is the way its supposed to be. We know things are bad, worse than bad, its like everything everywhere is going crazy so we dont go out anymore. We sit in our house and slowly the world we're living in is getting smaller. We say please at least leave us alone in our living rooms, let me have my toaster, my tv, my computer, and I wont say anything just leave us alone. "

A sad day indeed

2008-01-22T21:48:00.000-08:00

Well as I'm sure a lot of you have heard, Heath Ledger (actor) has passed away today. Its sad to see such a great actor leave us, but he has left some great work behind. It will feel weird to watch him on the big screen as the joker but I will be loving every minute of it. I know he was a great actor and should be honored for the craft he mastered. His career would have surely gone to great heights, but we we're only meant to have this amount of time with him.

I thought it a little strange that I found out about this only 3 hours after he was discovered. I live 3000 miles away from New York where this took place. Word travels fast indeed.

Thanks Heath for everything!

On a lighter note I found some very interesting videos online from a scientist who believes his theories explain a lot of what we see in the universe as well as UFO propulsion. His name is David Sereda and you can watch a few of his videos here:

part 1

part 2

part 3

part 4

Thanks for visiting :)

My first blog, my first post

2008-01-21T14:12:00.000-08:00

Well I have to say welcome to my new blog. At this point I am very unsure where I might go with this blog. I assume I will post my ramblings and thoughts regarding any i imagine or deal with at any particular time.

I just finished editing together a youtube video about DMT, audio by Joe Rogan. It explains that DMT , the most powerful psycedelic known to man is actually created in our brain. Ive just learned that is not true but rather that it is produced in muscles throughout your body. This chemical is what makes you daydream, dream, and pro

I should also explain that I am a freelance artist. check my website at www.bestofthebeast.com

This is all for now I will post more later.